Its part of my healing process

[cowmilker]

My dad called this morning, choking on his tears, to tell me that he and my mom are going to separate for awhile. I talked to both my parents and am neither accepting nor fully understanding of the situation. I know neither of them owe me any type of explanation beyond what has been given to me and they both reassured me that although they love each other still, Mom is just going to leave for awhile. But still, there is a tremendous gap inside me right now and I fear it will never fill up. The thing that hurts me the most though, was hearing the tone of my dad's voice and him saying that he missed me and wanted me home. I've been feeling disconnected from my family ever since I moved to Vancouver, and now, more than ever, I just want to go home. Kevin offered to drive me home for the afternoon, but I think that might make it worse for my parents right now. I am planning on a weekend trip home next week, which is something I need to do for myself. My little sister sounded pretty much how I felt when I spoke with her. My brother doesn't know yet.

How do you carry on life as normal when a huge part of your heart is screaming in agony?