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[cowgurldeepdown]

Alright well I got a XANGA recently my username on there is the same so if anyone wants to look me up and what not... But yeah, today was ok, think I might like P again instead of L. Gosh I'm such a teenager, can't even make up my mind about which guy I like haha not that it matters, probably don't have a chance with either... it was really weird today though, P has this ring, it's his promise ring and I always take it and play with it, today I was just wearing it and it was so weird because I had this weird like feeling go through, stangest thing I ever felt, I don't know it was just WAY weird... Other than that watched a lotta Tv today and couldn't focus on my homework *sigh* All my friends from CP are having such a hard time and I just don't know what to tell them, I've never really experienced anything that they have, I mean I'm just nothing like any of my friends, well I am but just not... I guess it's the same for everyone though, right? I mean no one's the same... Oh well, I can't ever have good timing on anything can I? Life's life right? I wish for once I could just find a guy who was like so perfect, or so like me, or maybe even unlike that I could like and actually have a possibility with (besides the general haha) Oh I love that horse and when I think about him ever leaving it breaks my heart, it really does. That horse and the barn are the familiar things I hold onto in my life, I left most everyone that really mattered to me when I left middle school... I mean I know I'll make new friends but no one will ever be as close as those at CP were, or they aren't so far, but I mean years mean so much more than weeks right? I think about my Cp friends and sometimes I turn around and kind of expect to see em there the sad part is that I never do, I wish we could've just stayed, I mean how much of a difference could 16 ppl really make? Well I mean in population sizes sort of way, I know that CP is way crowded though... Oh well not much else to write so I'm going off to bed, write tomorrow... maybe

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