trust...
theres someone i know....who doesn't trust anyone...especially me...i think its cuz he doesn't wanna get hurt...which i understand cuz i've been there too...but on a completely different level...so although i kind of understand where he's comming from i don't know the full...well...feeling i guess...like exactly how he feels...its kinda hard...because i will always trust...and always love, its my biggest character flaw...i will always put myself out there...unfortunately sometimes...but still...i wish he could tell me what he's thinking...express the way he feels...but sometimes he can't...and its hard for me...to accept that i guess...and i really hope someday he will...cuz i know how much he cares...in these last couple of weeks our relationship has taken a turn that i would have never expected it to...and as much as i try not to care...i do...and i think i was more scared then ne thing else when i realized...that i always will...
***and i don't think he realizes how important he is to me...becuz until today i really don't think i really understood or realized...but he has become so much a part of my life, so much a part of me...i dunno...and today i realized...that if i could call anyone like at a random moment...it wouldn't be willy anymore...it would be him...thats a huge transition...and i'm scared...but hey...i love like i'll never get hurt...cuz someday someone won't hurt me...and they'll deserve my love...he hasn't hurt me yet...and i trust him not too...its as simple as that...sara...my best friend...said to me today..."you two just fit together..." i was...shocked...to say the least...then it struck me...i am just comfortable w/ him...happy to be around him even...and i haven't felt that in so long...that it took me a while to get used to it to remember the way it feels...its strange...thas not all i have to say...but i'm done for now...if any of you don't know who i'm talking about ur fucking dumb...:)
u better write me one back dawl...i'll kill! haha
**there official expression of my exact thoughts...well...pretty much ne wyz...
*loves*
***and i don't think he realizes how important he is to me...becuz until today i really don't think i really understood or realized...but he has become so much a part of my life, so much a part of me...i dunno...and today i realized...that if i could call anyone like at a random moment...it wouldn't be willy anymore...it would be him...thats a huge transition...and i'm scared...but hey...i love like i'll never get hurt...cuz someday someone won't hurt me...and they'll deserve my love...he hasn't hurt me yet...and i trust him not too...its as simple as that...sara...my best friend...said to me today..."you two just fit together..." i was...shocked...to say the least...then it struck me...i am just comfortable w/ him...happy to be around him even...and i haven't felt that in so long...that it took me a while to get used to it to remember the way it feels...its strange...thas not all i have to say...but i'm done for now...if any of you don't know who i'm talking about ur fucking dumb...:)
u better write me one back dawl...i'll kill! haha
**there official expression of my exact thoughts...well...pretty much ne wyz...
*loves*