i cant live my, i cant live my life this way.....
okay good news...my parents are gone for the whole weekend, bad news trevor is really dumb and dates skany hoes and i think he is drinking and driving... i hate him so much sometimes. i hate to sound really dumb and whiny but i am really freaked. i hate having to be the older sibling and be up till one in the morning wondering why he isnt home or why he hasnt checked in with me and not to mention i found an open can of coors in his fridge so i can only assume that he was drinking it and i just cant stand it. i dont know what to do with him and my parents are completely nieve to all this and i feel like i should talk to him but ahhh its making me go crazy. i cant wait till i move to new york and get away from it all. who would have thought i, one of the most optimistic, people would become such a pessimist and change my life soo much. one can only hope i grow out of it and be my old self......