Today...
Well:
Today was valentines day!! This is the first Valentines day that I can remember being alone, as I haven't been single for around 4 years. Needless to say it was weird. What also didn't help is that I recieved roses this morning from Cody which he had ordered before we broke up...not so good times!! I am so confused about life right now that it is astounding!!! Even though I know that not being with Cody was the right decision and I don't regret it at all I am having a hard time adjusting to how it feels to be alone. You don't realise how much your daily activities and thoughts are organized around the person youare with until you aren't with them anymore...and that is what I need to overcome. I really wish that Philly was here because she is my saviour in times like these, but the fact that she isn't is an even bigger sign that I need to do this on my own. Also another thing I REALLY don't understand is how do all the boys around you who didn't even seem slightly interested in you before all of the sudden want in ur pants two days after you are single???? It is a bizzare fact of life...
Anyways thank GOD for my friends because without them I would probably literaly die of stress...
Until next time....
James xo
Today was valentines day!! This is the first Valentines day that I can remember being alone, as I haven't been single for around 4 years. Needless to say it was weird. What also didn't help is that I recieved roses this morning from Cody which he had ordered before we broke up...not so good times!! I am so confused about life right now that it is astounding!!! Even though I know that not being with Cody was the right decision and I don't regret it at all I am having a hard time adjusting to how it feels to be alone. You don't realise how much your daily activities and thoughts are organized around the person youare with until you aren't with them anymore...and that is what I need to overcome. I really wish that Philly was here because she is my saviour in times like these, but the fact that she isn't is an even bigger sign that I need to do this on my own. Also another thing I REALLY don't understand is how do all the boys around you who didn't even seem slightly interested in you before all of the sudden want in ur pants two days after you are single???? It is a bizzare fact of life...
Anyways thank GOD for my friends because without them I would probably literaly die of stress...
Until next time....
James xo