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I am so completely frustrated with everything right now. I'm frustrated that my friends hurt and there is nothing I can do. I am frustrated that my parents care so much that they don't see what I see. I am frustrated with myself as a woman who is so completely driven by emotions, but doesn't know how to express them. I am frustrated that no matter how hard I try to comfort the friend, adore the sister, encourage the parents, win the role, or attract the man, I simply cannot do any of these things.
All I want is to succeed at something. I want to make it in my career as a performer, and then teach. I want to be a wife and mother. I want to be a good role model to my sister. I want to be a confidant to my friends. And I want to make my parents proud, and help them not to worry so much.
I would settle for just one of those things. Of course the wife and mother part requires meeting and attracting the right guy, first. I've met a man who is the right KIND of man, but he doesn't see me. Or at least, I don't think he does.
I just want to be special to someone in some way. That's all.
There are great things that I am happy about, I just needed to get that out.
All I want is to succeed at something. I want to make it in my career as a performer, and then teach. I want to be a wife and mother. I want to be a good role model to my sister. I want to be a confidant to my friends. And I want to make my parents proud, and help them not to worry so much.
I would settle for just one of those things. Of course the wife and mother part requires meeting and attracting the right guy, first. I've met a man who is the right KIND of man, but he doesn't see me. Or at least, I don't think he does.
I just want to be special to someone in some way. That's all.
There are great things that I am happy about, I just needed to get that out.