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well i offically dont know how I'm goin to live.....me and m/f broke up fri night over somrthing stupid...actually he broke my heart and doesnt even care.....he says he has to think about some things...basically hes throwing away a 7 month relationship b/c i have some faults that i can work on and b/c he wants a girl who won't care when he hangs out with his guys including his best friend derek......and apparently he thinks im tryin to come between him and derek....which ive never once done anything to make him think that but ok.....i have a convo with derek last night about 11:30 cuz jamey was sleeping or something.....and he kinda in a way made me feel better....A) b/c he wasn't being a jerk....he was being sincere.....everytime i talked to prue he was bein a jerk cuz he didnt want to talk to me....but anyway bck to my convo with derek.....i dunno i actually slept last night after i talked to him.....although he told me i need to give prue space and thats not what i want to do i guess i have to....i guess ill have to sit here and wait as long as it takes to make prue realize that i can wait for him and that i am willing to work on my faults....and that I AM the right girl for him....ive always been there for him and i always will be and he's helped me through some realy hard times recently with my papa dying and stuff and i can't let him go....ive fallen in love for the first time and im not willing to give up this easy....and i know he isnt either....so please just pray for us and me and him.....pray that he makes the right decision and that he makes his own decision.....and pray for me that no matter what the outcome of this is that i'll be ok....cuz right now im not doin good at all....thanks....