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I have been soaking in as much out door time as I can lately. The weather in the summer here in Texas is hot and from now on I expect it will be in the 90's + until September. My typical day is a morning walk or if I am tired, I drive a golf (like) cart around. I wish I could walk around more, but I get eaten alive by insects which are out of control once you get outside the manicured areas of grass near the house. Once the sun gets up around 11 it is time to get under cover or into air conditioning.
So MJ found a place to move about a week back. He kept asking me opinion about, a house, back with his mother, a condo, apartment etc. It was hard not to just say anywhere but here, but I was polite. So he found a condo which is actually a smart move on his part. He either is driving around, or in the pool here or playing video games. The place he found has a pool and has many amenities which will help him and is wheel chair assessable should he be in the chair. He wanted me to check it out, but I really did not have the energy and besides I have not actually been in a vehicle with him since we officially decided to split. I wish this all could be done today, but they need to go through the paperwork of the sale etc, so I have no clue how long it will take him. It has been pretty hard emotionally to string this out.
At different times I think about if it was the right decision, but I know it is and still my brain wonders. I have missed him for so long, so it is like he has been gone for a long time. I will be glad to turn the page and start a fresh chapter. Maybe the next chapter won't be so new, maybe it will be about the separation and the problems that come next. Although I want less drama, I do want something. What it is, I don't yet know.
So MJ found a place to move about a week back. He kept asking me opinion about, a house, back with his mother, a condo, apartment etc. It was hard not to just say anywhere but here, but I was polite. So he found a condo which is actually a smart move on his part. He either is driving around, or in the pool here or playing video games. The place he found has a pool and has many amenities which will help him and is wheel chair assessable should he be in the chair. He wanted me to check it out, but I really did not have the energy and besides I have not actually been in a vehicle with him since we officially decided to split. I wish this all could be done today, but they need to go through the paperwork of the sale etc, so I have no clue how long it will take him. It has been pretty hard emotionally to string this out.
At different times I think about if it was the right decision, but I know it is and still my brain wonders. I have missed him for so long, so it is like he has been gone for a long time. I will be glad to turn the page and start a fresh chapter. Maybe the next chapter won't be so new, maybe it will be about the separation and the problems that come next. Although I want less drama, I do want something. What it is, I don't yet know.