a writing ejaculation
You can't trust anybody
because they'll lie to protect
you can't trust anyone
because they are going to lie
and say it was to protect you
don't trust anyone because they will lie not to hurt you
when it will hurt more just to come out with it
if you ever don't want to hurt again just go ahead and trust someone
I was going to surprise her and rape her
try to fulfill one of those fantasies
but thought better of it so she wasn't disappointed
I was going to rape her,
but I could hear her sigh when she felt it was my dick fucking her
I was going to give it to her good,
but I wouldn't be able to plunge that soft flesh enough
to satisfy that gaping wound stuck deep between her and a hard place
and I'm back from a cold walk at 5 in the morning
just reaming my brain searching for a beginning
its 5 in the morning and I can't think of where to begin
I ask forgiveness for the many things I know
I might do
there ain't nothing in the fridge I'm going to eat
anytime soon or even later than that
and I don't have any interest in the tv for the time being
and my couch gets too hot and comfortable for me to lay on more than 8 hours at a time
and I can't sleep long enough to get this taste of comfort and despair out of my mouth
and the world isn't going to end anytime soon
so I'll guess I'll go play with my meat
when I sleep next to you its like sleeping next to my mother
when I sleep next to you its like sleeping next to your mother
when I can't sleep next to you its because you're like your mother
and I don't want to sleep with your mother
and I don't want to sleep with my mother
and I don't want to lose sleep because of your mother
and I just can't resign myself to being your father
the cold makes me feel alive
my asshole clinches up
I think of male rape on the sidewalk
while I tie my shoes
I shake my head, sitting on milk crates
waiting for someone to blow the back of my head off
I called you on the telephone
and you sounded upset
when I ask how you are doing
you always say tired
I work twice as hard one third of the day
just so I can finance the other two
I waste one third of my life to pay for the other wasted two
I get paid to stay in one place just to pay to stay in another place
I want to fuck who I want when I want how I want the way I want
and everything can just go fuck themselves if they don't want it
go fuck
their self
the way they want
they got my vote
because they'll lie to protect
you can't trust anyone
because they are going to lie
and say it was to protect you
don't trust anyone because they will lie not to hurt you
when it will hurt more just to come out with it
if you ever don't want to hurt again just go ahead and trust someone
I was going to surprise her and rape her
try to fulfill one of those fantasies
but thought better of it so she wasn't disappointed
I was going to rape her,
but I could hear her sigh when she felt it was my dick fucking her
I was going to give it to her good,
but I wouldn't be able to plunge that soft flesh enough
to satisfy that gaping wound stuck deep between her and a hard place
and I'm back from a cold walk at 5 in the morning
just reaming my brain searching for a beginning
its 5 in the morning and I can't think of where to begin
I ask forgiveness for the many things I know
I might do
there ain't nothing in the fridge I'm going to eat
anytime soon or even later than that
and I don't have any interest in the tv for the time being
and my couch gets too hot and comfortable for me to lay on more than 8 hours at a time
and I can't sleep long enough to get this taste of comfort and despair out of my mouth
and the world isn't going to end anytime soon
so I'll guess I'll go play with my meat
when I sleep next to you its like sleeping next to my mother
when I sleep next to you its like sleeping next to your mother
when I can't sleep next to you its because you're like your mother
and I don't want to sleep with your mother
and I don't want to sleep with my mother
and I don't want to lose sleep because of your mother
and I just can't resign myself to being your father
the cold makes me feel alive
my asshole clinches up
I think of male rape on the sidewalk
while I tie my shoes
I shake my head, sitting on milk crates
waiting for someone to blow the back of my head off
I called you on the telephone
and you sounded upset
when I ask how you are doing
you always say tired
I work twice as hard one third of the day
just so I can finance the other two
I waste one third of my life to pay for the other wasted two
I get paid to stay in one place just to pay to stay in another place
I want to fuck who I want when I want how I want the way I want
and everything can just go fuck themselves if they don't want it
go fuck
their self
the way they want
they got my vote