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Yaaaa....Okay...so I didn't get to go to the rodeo yesterday to confess my love to Faith lol. I pretty much fell asleep right after I posted my journal yesterday. It felt so good to be able to wake up a midnight not tired anymore and then go back to sleep just because I can! I was kind of dissapointed that I didn't make it out to her rodeo though. But! I decided that's it for the best. See...the love I have for Faith is different than the love I have for Tia...there may be more of it...but it's not the same...see I love Faith like a sister. I didn't realize that untill today. I also realized that my little brother Chris...who has stepped in as kind of my best friend believe it or not! Well he likes Faith...A LOT. I couldn't date her if my lil bro likes her. What kind of a brother would I be? Besides there are A LOT of other girls out there and MANY that would jump at the chance to go out with me...I just have to find them. They're around...I know they are because I've had plenty of them in the past. I know it's commanded that we shouldn't covit...but I would really like to go out with Amy...or Jessica Hughes...but they're both going out with friends of mine. Amy and Jess are both VERY fond of me. I don't know for sure...but Jess should be available in about a month or less...because she's getting A LOT of crap for dating Peach. If she's not available well lets just say I can't WAIT UNTIL XCOUNTRY IS FINALLY OVER!!!!! See having these past couple of days off so I could work on my Eagle and go to that Family reunion has been AWESOME!!!!! I don't remember the last time I've felt so alive. I've been way more self aware. I get a long with everyone...I'm not "so mean" as Tia would put it. I've even redeveloped my personality!!! As soon as XCountry is over I have an entire off season that I get to work and I will start going to the Dance Club again to find a girl that I'd like to date for the rest of the year.
I have tryouts tonight for the big play. I am pretty much garunteed a spot because there are only 2 guys in the class. It will be a big part and I will have lots to do. I just realized today after I checked out a book that friendships have never really been my thing inside school but rather outside school after hours. Cameron was an exception to that rule. I just haven't been reading in school to pass the boring moments away and knew something was missing...the book was it. I just need to read again! I have all the friends in the world...I'm just not terribly close to them all. I think everyone out here is the same way though. Me and Jace are almost exactly alike!