Blizzard

[covert_exotic]

How long can you love someone that does not love you?
And does that make you stronger, pouring out your soul to someone who has to try to have feelings for you?
When it snows how long can we stand the cold before the frost reaches us somewhere that... no other thing, good or evil.. could?
And when sleep takes you away from everything why does God let you wake up and feel all your misery crashing around you all over again, with no solace but the blankets on top of you which aren't doing enough to keep out the cold?
How long can you hold on to someone who has already let you go..?
It was too much for him, He was too much for me, I wasnt enough for him and he was not enough for me.
Because finally I've understood;
and love is something I dont understand at all
I tried too hard and now the snow falls too much, and it covers every path i thought i'd cleared for myself

to find my way back home.
I left everything that mattered to me, and I appologize.
To all of you
and to myself,
I let myself forget

...
to let go

but now i cant hold on
and it's time to
do for myself
the things i always wasted my time doing for him.
because i deserve it.

and he did not