I Hate My Parents

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Stephanie's surgery is tomorrow. I can't wait for it to be over, so mom and dad can pay a little attention to Marissa and me instead of directing it all towards Stephanie. I know it's a huge operation. I mean, she's getting a rib removed, and metal rods put into her vertebrate. I understand that mom and dad are worried and scared for her, but for the past month or so, they have been totally wrapped around her. It's ALL about her. Sure, my problems aren't very big, like my mouth killing me, and needing to pick up my contacts because the ones I am using are worn out, but it's like I'm not even here. I don't know if Marissa feels that way too, but it was a little evident tonight when we were at dinner and Marissa was talking, but mom interrupted her to tell Stephanie something about her surgery. We went out to dinner for Stephanie, we're watching a movie Stephanie wants to watch, she got new clothes, gifts, all of the attention. Maybe I am being selfish, but I just want to have mom and dad tell me something that's not about her surgery. I want them to praise me for something. I don't know. I'll shut up now. I know I am being selfish, but I don't care. It's because I'm the first born...

And Stephanie is their little angel right now. Marissa and I are just their daughters.