blah randomness.....
ugh blah.....i just feel so burnt out....school is officially a bitch....
But at least i kind of have fun every once in a while. The other day i put (almost) an entire fudge-cicle in my mouth, that was fun, haha you probably didnt have to know that but i dont care. lol, it's not like anyone actually reads this.
Let's have fun with this, since nobody reads this i could potentially say anything i want and it would go hurtling through cyber space never to be read....i could day I HATE YOU!!!! depending on who you are this may or may not be true.
Since when am i such a dullard. maybe i should just change my name to Beau Ring (say it really fast and you'll get it) and move to Nebraska where nothing ever happens. lol jk.
The other day someone i know did the sweetest thing for me. i need to buy a book for my english class and she was in the neighborhood of powell's and she called me because she was going to buy it for me to save me the trouble. She would have bought it for me but i didnt answer my cell phone....so unfortunately she didnt get to buy me the book.
People are so stupid, we always do the wrong things and make the wrong choices. I mean how hard is it to make the distinction between right from wrong? I mean i know i do bad things too, but im not saying im not among this category of "stupid people". I hate this, why must everyone always be bent on having what is not theirs, doing what is clearly forbidden, and lying when it matters the most.... I wish people would understand the meaning of pain. That when you do something it affects others, and not always in a good way. This happens to me a lot from a lot of people, but unfortunately im not the type of people who ever says anything about it. Why cant we just understant that other people have feelings too? and that they are just as vulnerable as you. My feelings get hurt a lot, i tend to think more than others sometimes. Not because people are mean to me, but because im really sensitive, but im really good at hiding this sometimes. If i want you to know how i feel, i'll show you, but if i dont, you'll never know.
SOmetimes it's hard for me to know what im feeling. but a lot of the times if i dig deep enough i'll feel really sad, all the time. And not just lately, but all the time. FOr one reason or another, i can always make myself feel sad. Making myself feel happy is another thing entirely, it's hard for me to find things that make me happy, is there something wrong with me? maybe im a sociopath. i wouldnt be surprised. a lot of the times i find myself feeling totally emotionles. Or while the rest of society thinks something is absolutely repulsive, i'll find it beautiful. is this me being completely insane or is it compassion? i dont know but it worries me to say the least.
But at least i kind of have fun every once in a while. The other day i put (almost) an entire fudge-cicle in my mouth, that was fun, haha you probably didnt have to know that but i dont care. lol, it's not like anyone actually reads this.
Let's have fun with this, since nobody reads this i could potentially say anything i want and it would go hurtling through cyber space never to be read....i could day I HATE YOU!!!! depending on who you are this may or may not be true.
Since when am i such a dullard. maybe i should just change my name to Beau Ring (say it really fast and you'll get it) and move to Nebraska where nothing ever happens. lol jk.
The other day someone i know did the sweetest thing for me. i need to buy a book for my english class and she was in the neighborhood of powell's and she called me because she was going to buy it for me to save me the trouble. She would have bought it for me but i didnt answer my cell phone....so unfortunately she didnt get to buy me the book.
People are so stupid, we always do the wrong things and make the wrong choices. I mean how hard is it to make the distinction between right from wrong? I mean i know i do bad things too, but im not saying im not among this category of "stupid people". I hate this, why must everyone always be bent on having what is not theirs, doing what is clearly forbidden, and lying when it matters the most.... I wish people would understand the meaning of pain. That when you do something it affects others, and not always in a good way. This happens to me a lot from a lot of people, but unfortunately im not the type of people who ever says anything about it. Why cant we just understant that other people have feelings too? and that they are just as vulnerable as you. My feelings get hurt a lot, i tend to think more than others sometimes. Not because people are mean to me, but because im really sensitive, but im really good at hiding this sometimes. If i want you to know how i feel, i'll show you, but if i dont, you'll never know.
SOmetimes it's hard for me to know what im feeling. but a lot of the times if i dig deep enough i'll feel really sad, all the time. And not just lately, but all the time. FOr one reason or another, i can always make myself feel sad. Making myself feel happy is another thing entirely, it's hard for me to find things that make me happy, is there something wrong with me? maybe im a sociopath. i wouldnt be surprised. a lot of the times i find myself feeling totally emotionles. Or while the rest of society thinks something is absolutely repulsive, i'll find it beautiful. is this me being completely insane or is it compassion? i dont know but it worries me to say the least.