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As it is so already obvious, I've been m.i.a.
Honestly I've been going through it. I was going through it, I was done & burn out. I was so close to dropping out of school. Everything seemed to be going right as well as wrong at the same time. A relationship with someone for a year and three months over. I was tossed aside and not once did he give concern about what I was feeling. Why does one cheat? How could you bring yourself to cheat when something is so good. I guess he quit on me because I was in it. That's what a relationship is, going through the ups and downs.. not just the ups. I couldn't say 'I love you' because I wasn't in love. Why lie?! So oh well.. he went around and found another female to spend his time with. There were so many things that went wrong that he avoided. I can say that I went out with a fight.
So moving on, my gpa I'm not happy with that's for damn sure. I do enjoy work though.. that's all I can say I do these days. School and work. I'm going to lose my friends if I don't stop. I fail to realize how much I neglect them now that I work. I feel bad, I've been through that and I know I don't want to do the same to my friends. Get my gpa back up, pay more attention to my friends, and re-focus.
I lied this week, boy oh boy do I feel guilty as hell. When I did lie my face just flushed with heat and I was just ready to break down and cry. The lie wasn't even a big deal because no one found out that I was lying but no more lying for me. I mean it when I say I don't lie. Honesty. [I think karma is getting me in a creative way being that my face randomly broke out today.]
So stress leads to shopping, mini shopping i should say.
(can't wait till it gets here next week, so excited)
