you are my sunshine. my only sunshine. you make me happy. when skies are grey. youll never know dear
current wishes:
-youd be as great as everyone thinks you are
-i would miraculously be back in shape bcuz this whole running thing is kicking my ass right now. i had forgotten how hard it was to get in shape. well i guess i never really had to. but its a bitch.
-i would be as smart as people think i am. i want to do well in school. i want to go to tech or university of richmond or jmu or somewhere. i dont want to go to jmu.
-i could take pictures. everywhere. across the country of the sky and of water and dirt roads that never end and the moon over a dock reflecting off the water. i really want to take pictures. but i cant imagina myself making any money as a photographers and im not sure that living in a motor home is the best place for me. way too unorganized and way too spoiled to handle that.
-i would be more greatful
-i get a car. and a job. i really need a job. yes i can a ton of money for my allowance. im not greedy id just rather have to do something so i wont feel guilty. also, i have absolutely no work ethic or will to do anything.
-i would stop stressing over my stupid family. things are happening and its just the way it is. things are never gonna be the saaaaaame (hah im funny). but its true so the smile fades as the reality of who i am and the way that i live and things happening around me that im just not able to deal with properly sets in and i wish i could just run away and do whatever i want with my life and never look back. but who has the balls to do that? not me. not to mention money, support, means of transportation, id to get me hotel rooms. if i was positive i had at least a car to stay in and money to eat id do it. if i had a friend. im a very lonely person.
im done wishing for things. but im not quite making them happen yet. im stuck in this stupid middle place that everyone hates. i wish i had something important to say or some interesting experience to share that really could be purposeful but instead this crap comes out thats not even worth reading. or even writing. well, im done. this ones not for comments.
-youd be as great as everyone thinks you are
-i would miraculously be back in shape bcuz this whole running thing is kicking my ass right now. i had forgotten how hard it was to get in shape. well i guess i never really had to. but its a bitch.
-i would be as smart as people think i am. i want to do well in school. i want to go to tech or university of richmond or jmu or somewhere. i dont want to go to jmu.
-i could take pictures. everywhere. across the country of the sky and of water and dirt roads that never end and the moon over a dock reflecting off the water. i really want to take pictures. but i cant imagina myself making any money as a photographers and im not sure that living in a motor home is the best place for me. way too unorganized and way too spoiled to handle that.
-i would be more greatful
-i get a car. and a job. i really need a job. yes i can a ton of money for my allowance. im not greedy id just rather have to do something so i wont feel guilty. also, i have absolutely no work ethic or will to do anything.
-i would stop stressing over my stupid family. things are happening and its just the way it is. things are never gonna be the saaaaaame (hah im funny). but its true so the smile fades as the reality of who i am and the way that i live and things happening around me that im just not able to deal with properly sets in and i wish i could just run away and do whatever i want with my life and never look back. but who has the balls to do that? not me. not to mention money, support, means of transportation, id to get me hotel rooms. if i was positive i had at least a car to stay in and money to eat id do it. if i had a friend. im a very lonely person.
im done wishing for things. but im not quite making them happen yet. im stuck in this stupid middle place that everyone hates. i wish i had something important to say or some interesting experience to share that really could be purposeful but instead this crap comes out thats not even worth reading. or even writing. well, im done. this ones not for comments.