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I feel like i have an usual amount of anger recently. its like the past couple years ive been hurt so much that my goal is to hurt other people. every day i pray that i will be something better and not to be a total cunt but that never works out.
I have no trust for guys what so ever? and the only bad thing has been cheated on and lies, but for some reason, i treat them all like shit. i dont want people to get close to me, cause im just afraid they will hurt me.
and guess what, its not even with lovers or anything. its with friends too, i havent had the pick of the litter with friends so i push them away too. but sometimes they deserve it. i mean, how the fuck is someone supposed to be my friend and then go flirt with an ex crush on mine. a crush i had for 6 years. i dont even like the kid anymore. but its just weird to me. maybe im overdramatic.
I have no trust for guys what so ever? and the only bad thing has been cheated on and lies, but for some reason, i treat them all like shit. i dont want people to get close to me, cause im just afraid they will hurt me.
and guess what, its not even with lovers or anything. its with friends too, i havent had the pick of the litter with friends so i push them away too. but sometimes they deserve it. i mean, how the fuck is someone supposed to be my friend and then go flirt with an ex crush on mine. a crush i had for 6 years. i dont even like the kid anymore. but its just weird to me. maybe im overdramatic.