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Last night was a weird night. I guess you can say I learned alot of things. I'm over the whole drug thing. I found myself, and who I really am, and I dont need drugs to run my life or to make me feel complete. I'm happy where I am, and I am happy that I found Jay. I decided I'm going to go back to college soon. I may take one class at a time for now just so I don't have to stress myself out. I know many people take 5 or so classes when in college, but I am one of those people who have to pace themselves. I really wish I could help Jay out in all possible. She's been upset here lately, and I hate seeing her upset. Her mom met this guy Hans, and now have been dating for about 3-4 months. He pretty much takes all the attention from her mom, and Jay feels like her mom doesn't care anymore. You can tell her mom has changed a bit, and you should always put your kids first. When you look at your friends, it's really amazing what drugs can do to them. I don't want them to ruin my life and I dont want Jay to ruin hers. So we agreed no more drugs. We have alot going for us, and it would just hurt family members if they new their child was wasting their life away. Well I guess I'm going to go, and I'm glad I was able to help Jay out a little bit lastnight. I miss you and I love you. <33 bye..