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[courtneycrumrin]

I scanned a page of my sketchbook. These are just some drawings of some of the Night Things I know.

They came out kind of okay.I don't know if I should color them or not. Nogg is all black. He doesn't always have that deer-in-the-headlights look to him, either. Just...usually when I'm around. >_> I thwacked him on the head with a carpetbag

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[courtneycrumrin]

Yes, definitely write it down. You may want to remember it in full detail later.

It's a good thing this is all text so you can't see me blushing and squirming. And, you know, likewise, and I appreciate it. And stuff. It meant a lot to me that you and Hippolyta came after me when that thing with the Rassplosion happened and I was holed up in Radley Hall. I'll never forget that.

I always feel bad for the people who come into the Nexus from places with war or huge amounts of crime or whatever, and are either caught in the middle or feel like they have to help fix it. Not the ones that think posturing and acting like assholes makes them heroic, the ones that actually act like they've been to hell and back. It makes me glad I'm still a little bit sheltered.

She doesn't know about Ostha-Huth? Um. Maybe I'll just retroactively lock this thread from her so you can tell her yourself in person, then. *DOES SO* That might be a volatile discussion.

*locked from everyone else, too*
You are what you are, Ramon. Fiendish or loyal, it's all you, and the people who know you best and care about you accept that. The others...well, I won't say they don't matter, because they can affect things, but they don't matter as much. And you know Hips will help you be strong when you need to be.

[8th_castellan]

Hahaha, aww, I've gone and embarrassed you anyways. But si, you've been there for me as well. I've not forgotten either how you gave your magical aide when Umbrella had me, and how you stayed my friend during the whole ordeal with my arrest and whatnot. AND how you were so gracious to take in the Hands around that same time. You're a good friend, Courtney.

This is all very true; feeling like it's your duty to save or shape your world is a tiresome thing. Believe me, I've been there. And it's only more sad when it's compelled largely by guilt, misplaced or otherwise.

I can also only imagine, however, how it must feel to suddenly be ejected from a scenario or environment like that and unexpectedly find yourself in a far more peaceful or removed position. 'Jarring' probably doesn't even cover it. Like, that feeling you get when you can't believe something is really, actually over. Or that the better situation you've found yourself in must be a dream, and you dread waking up from it.

...Ah. Hm. Thank you. I was thinking about that; about how that might be awkward if she saw this conversation beforehand. Don't want to seem like I'm keeping secrets from her; I just haven't gotten around to mentioning it. And I already had in mind introducing her to my new arachnid tenant; I suppose a trip down to the lake is in order as well now.

[Locked]

Well-said, and thank you. It really is all I need to hear right now. Sometimes I feel like I put too much pressure on you and Hippolyta and all my other friends, though. Because we might as well not lie or pretend it's not the case; you are all what keeps me good. If I didn't have any of you, I'd probably regularly be behaving much as I did before I found the Nexus.

I just don't like the idea of any of you, Hippolyta or my friends, feeling like its I'm your responsibility or anything like that. My staying decent is my own choice; you're all just the reason I do it.

[courtneycrumrin]

The Hands were, like, the best houseguests ever. They're quiet and neat and we knew if anyone broke into the place it would be the last thing they ever did.

I hadn't thought of it that way. I always figured it was disorienting, finding yourself in a new place, but I never thought about worrying you might wake up from it. It's different for me, maybe, because I found the Nexus sort of deliberately.

No problem. Can I be flattered I get to hear about them first? Good luck introducing her.

*lock*
I can't speak for Hips or your other friends, but I don't feel any pressure. Anyway, even if I did, you're worth the effort. That came out kind of mushy, but you know what I mean.