Nov 24, 2006 21:56
my life is crazy right now. i have 2 lives that don't mix. one i no longer wish to have any part of, but it continues to beckon. and it's hard. i don't want it, i don't need it, it's not good for me. but it is still a big part of my past, a part that at one time was the most important thing to me. but now i'm living another way completely. and i have the best boyfriend i could ask for, who also happens to be my best friend. that's the best kind. :-) and i have other wonderful friends who want nothing but the best for me. being home for thanksgiving, along with everyone i used to associate myself with, has been one of the hardest times i've had to deal with since giving up what i was doing. it breaks my heart. and now they're playing dirty. this is so sad for me. but i am trying. so please continue to love me. that's all i can ask right now.