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Time was really flying by for a while there, but now it seems as though each and every day drags on for an eternity. I keep waking up wondering, "Will this be the day I get over David?" I mean, I don't waste my time crying about the breakup anymore, but I'm in this stoic haze all day everyday. I enjoy my time alone, I enjoy my time with my parents, and I have a great time at work and seeing my friends, but there is always this nagging in the back of my head, "What is David doing right now? Does he still think of me?"
I want to wake up just one morning and NOT think about him... I want to go one whole day and not miss him. I want to stop having the silly feeling that I'll never get out of this, because right now that's how it seems. I wish that every sad song would stop singing to me, and that I would stop finding hidden meaning in lyrics with no meaning.
I just want to feel like this is okay. I want to feel like this is right. I want to wake up tomorrow morning, and suddenly breathe new life into my body. It would be the breath of a new day, the fresh start David was longing for, and I would feel like there were no regrets, nothing left unsaid...
I know this could take months, given the intensity and duration of my relationship with David, but I want it to be a distant memory that no longer weighs down my heart right now.