The Agony of Defeat
Just when things start looking good... I mean, better than good. They were looking awesome. I cleaned my act up a little bit to do my share of compromise and trying to be a person more suitable for his needs, but all my efforts seem to be worthless. Last night an uncomfortable phone call let me know that he doesn't know what he wants anymore. WHAT?!?! What do you mean? Just a week ago, we were back on track, better than ever. I think he's afraid of committment. I don't know. All I know is that my heart has been broken SOO many times by the same person, and I just don't know how many more heartbreaks I can withstand. It's hard... SO hard to move on from him. He's a beautiful person, inside and out. And honestly, I don't want to have to move on, but right now it's not my call. Wish me luck.