the bowels and pits

[courtknee_b]

 my stepdad bought me a "poo a day" calendar that i put in the bathroom. it gives you fun facts about poops.

i really like today's so i will share!

"the chinese star poo is characterized by the excruciatingly painful sensation that your rectum is being torn apart from the inside as this poo exits your body. this searing agony is commonly the result

Comments

[fallenskye4]

Ohhhh Courtney....
First of all that poop thing is hilarious.
Second of all.... I'm sorry about your experiences with nannying...
I have a few families that I nanny for and they are great, then there is the 8 year old girl I babysit for who yells at me all the time too.... It's hard not to take it to heart sometimes, but I know its really because she's angry and is taking it out on me because she sees me more than her parents. That's some pretty harsh stuff though for a 9 year old... do/does her parent(s) know about any of that? In my situation I felt bad leaving the job because I felt like I alone could help her or make things better but in reality nothing I could do as a caregiver could fix it... and sometimes we can act as mentor to these kids and other times it takes much more. In the end you have to do what is best for you... She sounds like a very angry girl that is in a great deal of pain. But if it is causing you pain as well, that isn't right either. Good luck, I'm honestly kind of in shock at some of the things she said to you and am not sure how I would personally deal with that except I also would be a big ball of tears.... but I hope things work out for you in the end. ::hugs::

[courtknee_b]

yeah. i've been with this fam for a year and a half now. i know that this is the way that the girl deals with her shit. she's really really fucked up. and sometimes she's amazing.. and sometimes it's awful. lately it's felt more awful. and i'm thinking that it may get to the point of needing to leave this family. which is really heart breaking.

the girl is really good at manipulation tactics and saying things that are supposed to hurt you or trigger you. i didn't let her know that it was hurting me. but once i was in my car... oh lordy!

xoxoxo