i decided against the continuation of the last post.
just because i can.
SO today i woke up from an almost full night's rest for the first time in about a week. delicious. i am doing what i wanted to do, and getting off of klonopin, i dare say for good(again. sigh.), and have found something that is NOT physically addictive(as in, if i stop taking it, it won't give me SEIZURES.), and is less expensive, and is NOT a benzo. i feel confident in this decision. this last week has been pretty treacherous, BUT i feel like i held my shit together PA-RETTY well, considering. 4mg to 0mg klonopin in less than a month is virtually impossible and extremely dangerous. i didn't CHOOSE to do it this way(thank you, lame-ass medical system!), but whatever. once it was down to 1mg a day, 1/2mg a day.... i was already feeling awful withdrawals and i just decided to see it through. the awesome awesome AWESOME doctor i saw at the carolyn downs free clinic set me up with things to help the stomach cramps, nausea, vomiting, shakes, etc. things that are less potent and i will only have to take for a month or two. insurance kicks in soon(ehealthinsurance.com FTW!), and then i should be looking at about $150/month for insurance and prescriptions, then some co-pay for doctor visits, but overall, it's VERY reasonable insurance for the price and what it offers. feelin' good about that too.
stephen has a job interview in an hour and a half at this SCMANCY retirement facility, as a second job during the week when he has 4 days off. it's a good place to work, from what i have heard, and they pay decently and it's not far from downtown, so once we get moved into a place of our own, he can take the bus without problems. i am VERY happy about THAT aspect. i like driving and our car gets decent mileage, but c'mon! it's seattle! perfect buses(and also, now, lightrail!) FOREVERRRRR! yes yes. it IS awesome to have the grocery-getter though, for judy's stuff and being able to help people out with rides when needed.
speaking of that..... i have a rant. yes, i know. it's been a while. sigh.
i am SUPREMELY annoyed with some of my extended family about mother's day. last friday night, carla(paul's mom; my "mom") bought pizza for her and i as a mother's day dinner. it was very sweet, and i really appreciated it, but it pisses me off that not one of her three grown children has planned something for her. now, i know they are busy, and i can appreciate having a life of your own and stuff like that.... and maybe they have cooked up a surprise..... but i don't think so. the same night and then again friday night i was helping her with her do stuff that is hard for her, ya know, sweep, vacuum, change the bedding, get a suitcase out of the top of the closet, laundry, nothing major at all, but she was thanking me like i had done something that really put me out. i kept telling her that it was not a big deal, that she should call me if she needs this stuff done(she is having sciatic nerve problems from her back to her hip and down to her leg), and not to hesitate, because it's what your kids do for you when they live close and have a vehicle. which.... 2 of her children DO and the other one lives within walking distance. AH-HEEMMM. honestly, i don't need anything for mother's day, stephen went out early in the AM and picked me flowers from random little flower beds around the city(we have them in the roundabouts and parks, he wasn't robbing our neighbors, haha), then he made me breakfast and we got judy later that day and went to the park.... it was lovely. truly, i felt great about it. i am just so happy with being able to spend so much time with judy now... gifts can't really touch that. AND, another thing that bothers me so much about carla's mother's day is that HER mother is DYING(she leaves tonight for Oklahoma to say her good-byes) and it REALLY would have been nice to have something done for her. grrrr.
anyways. other than that.... looks like my insurance will be retro-activated to the 15th, so i will get all the money back i've spent in prescriptions this week($75 and counting), and then all good. *whew*
reunited with 2 of my favorite seattle friends for nick's birthday, had a BLAST... walking all over the city, a few beers, some time to do something other than be supermom... pretty refreshing. ALSO, loving hanging out at stephen's work all the time. it's SO pretty and the people who he works with are awesome. i am happy he's there.
judy is well, stephen is well, i feel alright... now, just bring stephen a high-paying, 3-4 day a week 2nd job so that we can move out and have an excellent summer to prepare and settle in for the beautiful autumn and rainy(lovely!) seattle winter. :)
oh, and while we're at it(praying? asking the gods? demanding the universal "go" pass?!)... SSI for me, kthanks. woot.
SO today i woke up from an almost full night's rest for the first time in about a week. delicious. i am doing what i wanted to do, and getting off of klonopin, i dare say for good(again. sigh.), and have found something that is NOT physically addictive(as in, if i stop taking it, it won't give me SEIZURES.), and is less expensive, and is NOT a benzo. i feel confident in this decision. this last week has been pretty treacherous, BUT i feel like i held my shit together PA-RETTY well, considering. 4mg to 0mg klonopin in less than a month is virtually impossible and extremely dangerous. i didn't CHOOSE to do it this way(thank you, lame-ass medical system!), but whatever. once it was down to 1mg a day, 1/2mg a day.... i was already feeling awful withdrawals and i just decided to see it through. the awesome awesome AWESOME doctor i saw at the carolyn downs free clinic set me up with things to help the stomach cramps, nausea, vomiting, shakes, etc. things that are less potent and i will only have to take for a month or two. insurance kicks in soon(ehealthinsurance.com FTW!), and then i should be looking at about $150/month for insurance and prescriptions, then some co-pay for doctor visits, but overall, it's VERY reasonable insurance for the price and what it offers. feelin' good about that too.
stephen has a job interview in an hour and a half at this SCMANCY retirement facility, as a second job during the week when he has 4 days off. it's a good place to work, from what i have heard, and they pay decently and it's not far from downtown, so once we get moved into a place of our own, he can take the bus without problems. i am VERY happy about THAT aspect. i like driving and our car gets decent mileage, but c'mon! it's seattle! perfect buses(and also, now, lightrail!) FOREVERRRRR! yes yes. it IS awesome to have the grocery-getter though, for judy's stuff and being able to help people out with rides when needed.
speaking of that..... i have a rant. yes, i know. it's been a while. sigh.
i am SUPREMELY annoyed with some of my extended family about mother's day. last friday night, carla(paul's mom; my "mom") bought pizza for her and i as a mother's day dinner. it was very sweet, and i really appreciated it, but it pisses me off that not one of her three grown children has planned something for her. now, i know they are busy, and i can appreciate having a life of your own and stuff like that.... and maybe they have cooked up a surprise..... but i don't think so. the same night and then again friday night i was helping her with her do stuff that is hard for her, ya know, sweep, vacuum, change the bedding, get a suitcase out of the top of the closet, laundry, nothing major at all, but she was thanking me like i had done something that really put me out. i kept telling her that it was not a big deal, that she should call me if she needs this stuff done(she is having sciatic nerve problems from her back to her hip and down to her leg), and not to hesitate, because it's what your kids do for you when they live close and have a vehicle. which.... 2 of her children DO and the other one lives within walking distance. AH-HEEMMM. honestly, i don't need anything for mother's day, stephen went out early in the AM and picked me flowers from random little flower beds around the city(we have them in the roundabouts and parks, he wasn't robbing our neighbors, haha), then he made me breakfast and we got judy later that day and went to the park.... it was lovely. truly, i felt great about it. i am just so happy with being able to spend so much time with judy now... gifts can't really touch that. AND, another thing that bothers me so much about carla's mother's day is that HER mother is DYING(she leaves tonight for Oklahoma to say her good-byes) and it REALLY would have been nice to have something done for her. grrrr.
anyways. other than that.... looks like my insurance will be retro-activated to the 15th, so i will get all the money back i've spent in prescriptions this week($75 and counting), and then all good. *whew*
reunited with 2 of my favorite seattle friends for nick's birthday, had a BLAST... walking all over the city, a few beers, some time to do something other than be supermom... pretty refreshing. ALSO, loving hanging out at stephen's work all the time. it's SO pretty and the people who he works with are awesome. i am happy he's there.
judy is well, stephen is well, i feel alright... now, just bring stephen a high-paying, 3-4 day a week 2nd job so that we can move out and have an excellent summer to prepare and settle in for the beautiful autumn and rainy(lovely!) seattle winter. :)
oh, and while we're at it(praying? asking the gods? demanding the universal "go" pass?!)... SSI for me, kthanks. woot.