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So, there are some things that are bothering me. first of all i slept weird 2 nights ago and my neck has been hurting me terribly ever since. I dont really know what to do about it. i took some advil but it's not helping. I'm not sure how that happened, but it sure is a pain in the neck (get it? ha yeah i'm so funny).
Also, I cannot sleep in my apartment. I dont know why, but i am so uneasy falling asleep in an empty apartment. I can't really figure out why..it's not like i'm truly scared of someone breaking in. I guess I just feel way more comfortable with people around. Even if they were in the next room, like if i had a roommate i think that would be better. i'm not really sure what to do in terms of a living situation. I really want Michelle to move up here and live with me..but the probability of her actually finding a job and moving up here is slim, I think. So it's either live by myself again or find a roommate on craig's list. I'm not that excited about the latter..but i really dont think i want to live alone anymore. Plus it doesn't help that at work i feel alone the majority of the day. everyone around me is so busy with the merger and in meetings all day..and i usually just sit here wondering exactly what i'm supposed to be doing. I wrote a long letter to my boss but havent quite had the guts to send it. i guess there's a big part of me that really likes getting in late, and leaving early..and that might not happen if i actually got some more responsibilities. but i know..i need to just get it over with and try to improve this job because overall i am not happy.
anyway..on a good note i am very excited about the trip to padre in 3 weeks! it'll be me, Liz, Margie, and Caroline, all shacking it up at a Motel 6. yes, we are classy. But it should be a lot of fun. I just want to chill at the beach during the day and then get drunk at night. those are my only 2 goals. Can't wait :)
Also, I cannot sleep in my apartment. I dont know why, but i am so uneasy falling asleep in an empty apartment. I can't really figure out why..it's not like i'm truly scared of someone breaking in. I guess I just feel way more comfortable with people around. Even if they were in the next room, like if i had a roommate i think that would be better. i'm not really sure what to do in terms of a living situation. I really want Michelle to move up here and live with me..but the probability of her actually finding a job and moving up here is slim, I think. So it's either live by myself again or find a roommate on craig's list. I'm not that excited about the latter..but i really dont think i want to live alone anymore. Plus it doesn't help that at work i feel alone the majority of the day. everyone around me is so busy with the merger and in meetings all day..and i usually just sit here wondering exactly what i'm supposed to be doing. I wrote a long letter to my boss but havent quite had the guts to send it. i guess there's a big part of me that really likes getting in late, and leaving early..and that might not happen if i actually got some more responsibilities. but i know..i need to just get it over with and try to improve this job because overall i am not happy.
anyway..on a good note i am very excited about the trip to padre in 3 weeks! it'll be me, Liz, Margie, and Caroline, all shacking it up at a Motel 6. yes, we are classy. But it should be a lot of fun. I just want to chill at the beach during the day and then get drunk at night. those are my only 2 goals. Can't wait :)