bored
I'm so utterly bored. I have nothing to do, other than a few mindless tasks I'm avoiding. So I'm sitting here staring at my livejournal, so bored i'm almost angry that everyone around me is busy and i'm not. i feel like i did back when I first started when everyone was so swamped that no one could even spare 2 minutes to give me a task. I dont know what's happened with this job. I've been pretty steadily busy up until the middle of last week, and now all I do is play online and continue to organize My Documents (which only takes so long.) Some of you might thing that sounds like the ideal job, but I hate it. I wish people would ask me to do more. The "trafficking" part of my job only takes about an hour a week, and that continues to be the center of my purpose here, so the other hours are spent helping with other projects..so if no one gives me anything I have nothing to do. sigh...
I've realized I'm not all that satisfied here anymore. I just need more meaning and purpose otherwise I feel useless. I'm not exactly sure how to fix this, for fear that they'll realize I'm wasting a lot of time and fire me or something. I am jealous of my account manager peers and friends who are constantly going to TV shoots and business meetings in other cities. I want to do more, to be more. Maybe this will just come with time. They always said that once the launch died down, they'd give me some other, different responsibilities. I guess I need to talk to my bosses...
Well at least I have this and next weekend to look forward to. My parents and Michelle are coming up to visit. That will be fun..some nice dinners out and perhaps another night on the town with the girls. We had QUITE a good time last weekend ;) Then next weekend, we will most likely be celebrating Adam's birthday with a party. That's always a good time.
Alright, back to the nothingness........
I've realized I'm not all that satisfied here anymore. I just need more meaning and purpose otherwise I feel useless. I'm not exactly sure how to fix this, for fear that they'll realize I'm wasting a lot of time and fire me or something. I am jealous of my account manager peers and friends who are constantly going to TV shoots and business meetings in other cities. I want to do more, to be more. Maybe this will just come with time. They always said that once the launch died down, they'd give me some other, different responsibilities. I guess I need to talk to my bosses...
Well at least I have this and next weekend to look forward to. My parents and Michelle are coming up to visit. That will be fun..some nice dinners out and perhaps another night on the town with the girls. We had QUITE a good time last weekend ;) Then next weekend, we will most likely be celebrating Adam's birthday with a party. That's always a good time.
Alright, back to the nothingness........