(no subject)
its getting really bad around here. im so exhausted and all i want to do is get out of here. all i do is clean and take care of both my mom and dad. they're both really sick and im the only one here. my grandparents and aunts and uncles wont stop saying "YOU BETTER TAKE CARE OF THEM" blah blah what have i been doing the past few months? beating them up? no ive been fucking taking care of them and thats what im still doing. not once has anyone said you know, its nice that you take care of them. i mean its not like i have a choice but just someone saying something instead of people always yelling at me to do better. i hate it so much here. everyone has thoughts about dieing and sometimes you wish you could die. right now is one of those times. the other day when i did the spin out in my car and that truck almost t-boned me on my side, i wish that would have happened. its just getting so intense. i have so much thoughts and feelings and nobody to tell them to and shit. im just getting overwhelmed and im really starting to just want to give up. i want to get out of here.