update of nothingness
I finally get my stitches out tomorrow. I can't wait to be able to eat non mushy food. I am soooo hitting up Panda on the way back home from BHC tomorrow. Shawn wants to go out to dinner tomorrow before he leaves for phoenix for a month. He has a snowballs chance in hell of that one actually happening. Not to mention he thinks I'm going to come visit him since his job is putting him up in a hyatt for a month for training. Oh what a strange little delusional boy.
I'm no longer on my narcotics. *does a happy dance* It's so amazing to be capable of thought again. I don't know how some of our patients can handle life being on like 4358427 different kinds of narcs. I was about ready to toss my cookies every 20 minutes with 1000mg of vicodin running through my veins, but at least my face wasn't hurting. I hate vomit though, i would rather be in pain.
Other than that, I'm like a giant ball of hormonal fun. I keep crying at everything and it's driving me insane. It actually makes me want to cry more. I feel fat and I hurt. I haven't been this bad in a long time. I'm afraid to turn on the TV heaven forbid i see a commerical about baby food, or about those starving kids that drink mud water, or the one where the little boy is playing catch by himself because he doesn't have a father. I'll probably hole up in my room and spend the rest of the day sobbing on uncontrolably. I wonder if this is what it's like to be pregnant. I'm in need of some major sleep. I was practically passing out on the phone last night and then I hung up,and i was awake talking to myself for the next 2 hours and then i woke up at 3, 5 and finally 7 to get up for work.
I'm no longer on my narcotics. *does a happy dance* It's so amazing to be capable of thought again. I don't know how some of our patients can handle life being on like 4358427 different kinds of narcs. I was about ready to toss my cookies every 20 minutes with 1000mg of vicodin running through my veins, but at least my face wasn't hurting. I hate vomit though, i would rather be in pain.
Other than that, I'm like a giant ball of hormonal fun. I keep crying at everything and it's driving me insane. It actually makes me want to cry more. I feel fat and I hurt. I haven't been this bad in a long time. I'm afraid to turn on the TV heaven forbid i see a commerical about baby food, or about those starving kids that drink mud water, or the one where the little boy is playing catch by himself because he doesn't have a father. I'll probably hole up in my room and spend the rest of the day sobbing on uncontrolably. I wonder if this is what it's like to be pregnant. I'm in need of some major sleep. I was practically passing out on the phone last night and then I hung up,and i was awake talking to myself for the next 2 hours and then i woke up at 3, 5 and finally 7 to get up for work.