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i'm only updating because caleb told me to. geez i really do what people tell me to do. so i found out that i have to have back sugery. next month on the 22nd. sarah says that she is going to come and stay with me or come and see me. i highly dout that. that leads me to seth. he's a great kid. love him to death. sarah has been so wraped up in him since he got into his wreak. i understand that he was hurt. but he's going to be OK! i don't understand why she is pushing everyone away. she's going to relieze that no one is going to be there for her. it hurts. it really does. it makes me a little upset that she told parshia that she didn't care about anyone or anything except seth. if was parshia i would i have just up and left right there with out saying anything to sarah. i went to see seth. everything went a lot better than i thought. i thought that his dad hated me. no i was wrong. right when i got there his dad was talking to me and telling me that everything was ok between him and i. well seth's mom is another topic. i really don't care. mr. ewoldt didn't have a prolbem with me coming for seth sugery that he was going to have but didn't have it cuz he had a fever.i didn't go to seths suger because his mom didn't want me to come. whatever i don't even care anymore. i try to be nice. but oh well. seth's dad was really cool to me that day. and i really thank him for that. i understand that sarah is still upset about seth but i mean she needs to relieze that life IS going to go on. he's going to be ok. i'm always here for her and she knows that. but i don't know. i know that she see's what's going on and how things are changing. i guess that i could say that i've lost another freind. this sucks. i don't really know what else to type. my sugery is going to suck. if you people would like to come and visit me i'll be in he hospital for a whole week. then call my cell and let me know and then i'll give you another number to call when my sugery gets closer so that you can get all of the info. it's going to suck hard core. i'm going to be able to finish up the swim season. kinda makes me upset, kinda not.the closer that i get to my sugery date the more afraid that i get. i know that i'm going to be ok and that i've got an amazing doctor. but i've never had anything done like this. i also dont like the idea of having to stay in the hospital over night..in fact a week! i'm not to sure about that one yet. well i'm done updating...