Week 11.1 How do you respond to feelings of lonliness
Patient: Emma Frost
Fandom: X-Men/Marvel
Word Count: 360ish
Partner: Nonfandom AU relationship, redemptionmyass
How do you respond to feelings of loneliness?
Not well.I'm sure most say the same thing. What sort of person does handle lonliness well. I never really have liked it. Not since I was a child. When I was younger I was continually alone and so I never truly felt any lonliness. It was hard to feel lonliness when you'd never known the other side of the coin.
I was not a popular child and I accepted that at a young age. I spent little time with my peers, less with my family if it could be avoided. My popularity come years later and it was then that I first began to truly experience lonliness.
Now, when I have a life that is full of activity and people and commitments, I find that loneliness can creep up on me at the most inopportune times. Not that I don't mind my moments alone. Time alone, before this island and all that comes with it, was something I cherished and actively sought out on a daily basis, yet you can be alone even in a crowded room.
Usually, when I'm feeling lonely, I do things I wouldn't otherwise do. Call up former boyfriends. Seek out the sort of dives I would otherwise avoid and participate in what they call trolling. That was before I decided to toss aside everything I'd ever known for an island and a man.
I haven't found myself lonely yet. I haven't been here this long and, in truth, I've likely been rather a nuisance at James' side. I'm certain, eventually, I'll find myself falling into the emotions and desires that come with lonliness. It's part of human nature. Now though, when that happens, my options are limited. I can seek out Boone or Jack. I could try traipsing through the jungle once more and hope I don't encounter another bleeding boar.
Or I can try doing the one thing I never did. I could seek out James and explain to him how I'm feeling. I can be open about my emotions and not try and hide from the world that I can be as human as the next person. I could do that. I'm just not sure I can.
Fandom: X-Men/Marvel
Word Count: 360ish
Partner: Nonfandom AU relationship, redemptionmyass
How do you respond to feelings of loneliness?
Not well.I'm sure most say the same thing. What sort of person does handle lonliness well. I never really have liked it. Not since I was a child. When I was younger I was continually alone and so I never truly felt any lonliness. It was hard to feel lonliness when you'd never known the other side of the coin.
I was not a popular child and I accepted that at a young age. I spent little time with my peers, less with my family if it could be avoided. My popularity come years later and it was then that I first began to truly experience lonliness.
Now, when I have a life that is full of activity and people and commitments, I find that loneliness can creep up on me at the most inopportune times. Not that I don't mind my moments alone. Time alone, before this island and all that comes with it, was something I cherished and actively sought out on a daily basis, yet you can be alone even in a crowded room.
Usually, when I'm feeling lonely, I do things I wouldn't otherwise do. Call up former boyfriends. Seek out the sort of dives I would otherwise avoid and participate in what they call trolling. That was before I decided to toss aside everything I'd ever known for an island and a man.
I haven't found myself lonely yet. I haven't been here this long and, in truth, I've likely been rather a nuisance at James' side. I'm certain, eventually, I'll find myself falling into the emotions and desires that come with lonliness. It's part of human nature. Now though, when that happens, my options are limited. I can seek out Boone or Jack. I could try traipsing through the jungle once more and hope I don't encounter another bleeding boar.
Or I can try doing the one thing I never did. I could seek out James and explain to him how I'm feeling. I can be open about my emotions and not try and hide from the world that I can be as human as the next person. I could do that. I'm just not sure I can.