[CT] 74.8 - Walking Out
Patient: Fiona Glenanne
Partner: Michael Westen - canon
Show: Burn Notice
"When people can walk away from you, let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody who left." - T.D. Jakes
For every time she had walked out on Michael Westen, with the fear of tears stinging to her eyes, she had walked right back to him. It wasn't as simple as just turning her back on him, it was turning her back on a history, on a shared experience... on love. There had always been a reason for her to fall deeper, to want to push past those differences and just remember that he was that man. Things shifted though. Circumstances are never things you can control, and she was watching him slip further away from who she wanted to see looking back at her.
Apologies were fine, they came with the job -- with the cover. You use names, say things you don't mean, strike out when it fits the moment, but there was a difference between being in on the play and being taken off sides. They had always been able to manage, always come up with something, but the sting of his hand across her cheek wasn't something they had agreed on. Even the explanation, even the apology didn't take away the fact that he still did it. The job has risks, but Fiona never thought she'd see the day when she'd find herself on the other side of taking a slap from Michael.
He did what it took to get the job done.
It was something she'd known about him for a while, something that wasn't easy to forget when she had to keep reminding herself of that very fact. This though, didn't fall under the parameters she was used to seeing him follow. There was no questioning why, or how, or what the end of it was. Even with Carla, there had been questions to ask. Working for someone, doing what they asked of him to keep his answers coming, he had still doubted things, still tried to find a different way around it.
As much as she hated to think about it, she knew the slap across her face was the reality she needed to see. He was working for Strickland. It was what he wanted, what he'd been waiting for and he was going to do what was needed to get back in bed with an agency. It was more than just a slap in the face to think that he'd been happy just being back in bed with her. For all the reasons they had worked toward finding out who burned him, and now she was on her way back to being on the other side of that line.
Whatever distance she was going to put between them, was just making it easier for him down the line. He wouldn't have to choose between the job and her, because she had already made that choice for him by leaving. It wouldn't be his fault for not loving her enough, or loving the job more.
She could walk out, because she knew that for the first time in a long time she didn't have it in her to walk back.
Partner: Michael Westen - canon
Show: Burn Notice
"When people can walk away from you, let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody who left." - T.D. Jakes
For every time she had walked out on Michael Westen, with the fear of tears stinging to her eyes, she had walked right back to him. It wasn't as simple as just turning her back on him, it was turning her back on a history, on a shared experience... on love. There had always been a reason for her to fall deeper, to want to push past those differences and just remember that he was that man. Things shifted though. Circumstances are never things you can control, and she was watching him slip further away from who she wanted to see looking back at her.
Apologies were fine, they came with the job -- with the cover. You use names, say things you don't mean, strike out when it fits the moment, but there was a difference between being in on the play and being taken off sides. They had always been able to manage, always come up with something, but the sting of his hand across her cheek wasn't something they had agreed on. Even the explanation, even the apology didn't take away the fact that he still did it. The job has risks, but Fiona never thought she'd see the day when she'd find herself on the other side of taking a slap from Michael.
He did what it took to get the job done.
It was something she'd known about him for a while, something that wasn't easy to forget when she had to keep reminding herself of that very fact. This though, didn't fall under the parameters she was used to seeing him follow. There was no questioning why, or how, or what the end of it was. Even with Carla, there had been questions to ask. Working for someone, doing what they asked of him to keep his answers coming, he had still doubted things, still tried to find a different way around it.
As much as she hated to think about it, she knew the slap across her face was the reality she needed to see. He was working for Strickland. It was what he wanted, what he'd been waiting for and he was going to do what was needed to get back in bed with an agency. It was more than just a slap in the face to think that he'd been happy just being back in bed with her. For all the reasons they had worked toward finding out who burned him, and now she was on her way back to being on the other side of that line.
Whatever distance she was going to put between them, was just making it easier for him down the line. He wouldn't have to choose between the job and her, because she had already made that choice for him by leaving. It wouldn't be his fault for not loving her enough, or loving the job more.
She could walk out, because she knew that for the first time in a long time she didn't have it in her to walk back.