31.3-Wrong Partner
A time? It’s been argued that I have never made a choice of partner that wasn’t completely wrong. The three that weren’t just sex. Not to say that sex didn’t play a major part with each. Sex always plays a major part in my life. It’s just me, or my addiction, anyway. We’ll go through them in chronological order, I suppose.
Auberon. More times when we were wrong for each other than we were right. They say that opposites attract. We were too opposite, too much like each other too. It was enough for me to love him and for us to have excellent sex. It wasn’t enough for us to actually be anything like a married couple should be. We never trusted each other. We couldn’t ever actually live together, ever. Things were said that should never be said to a person’s worst enemy, let alone someone you are supposed to make a life with. We fought wars against each other. There was never any forgiveness between us. I can’t even begin to pick a single time when he was the wrong choice. There are too many. Might as well pick the worst cell in a cancer.
Hank. When he told me I was an alligator biting his leg. The climax of a bad relationship that should have ended long before hand. He didn’t want me to commit to him because he didn’t think I’d fight him. That I was just latched to him. It seems to be a somewhat common misconception since I was finally truly done with Auberon. They assume because I am willing to look past fights or be the one to bend that I will let them push me forever. And then they find out I have a limit. Hank found out that, and didn’t learn anything. He kept pushing and attacked me when we were trying to make peace with each other. To the point even my four year old knew it was wrong. We were done then.
Bobby. I can tell you all the reasons that other people think he’s the wrong choice. All the moments people use. My emotions are extreme. He is emotionally stunted. The truth is, in the worst times of my emotional issues, I’m too complicated for him. I chose him knowing that. I chose him partially because of that, he doesn’t make me face my emotions because he doesn’t see them. It is entirely possible that that makes him the wrong choice for me. Obviously I have severe issues personally and survive them most of the time by avoiding them completely. Someone who made me face them might be a better choice. The side effect is that he doesn’t know what to do with me at my worst. That we push each other’s buttons and seem unable to stop. The difference is, when everything feels like it’s going to fall to pieces, we’ve been able to speak with each other and fix things, so far.
I guess I don’t think Bobby is the completely wrong choice. In any circumstances. Well, as long as we are willing to keep working together to make things work. If we don’t, he’ll be the worst choice I’ve ever made in partner. Because it will be the one to truly break my heart.
Queen Mab
Original Character
550 Word Count
Partners: Auberon auberonsun, Hank alloy_avenger, and Bobby animus_nocendi
Auberon. More times when we were wrong for each other than we were right. They say that opposites attract. We were too opposite, too much like each other too. It was enough for me to love him and for us to have excellent sex. It wasn’t enough for us to actually be anything like a married couple should be. We never trusted each other. We couldn’t ever actually live together, ever. Things were said that should never be said to a person’s worst enemy, let alone someone you are supposed to make a life with. We fought wars against each other. There was never any forgiveness between us. I can’t even begin to pick a single time when he was the wrong choice. There are too many. Might as well pick the worst cell in a cancer.
Hank. When he told me I was an alligator biting his leg. The climax of a bad relationship that should have ended long before hand. He didn’t want me to commit to him because he didn’t think I’d fight him. That I was just latched to him. It seems to be a somewhat common misconception since I was finally truly done with Auberon. They assume because I am willing to look past fights or be the one to bend that I will let them push me forever. And then they find out I have a limit. Hank found out that, and didn’t learn anything. He kept pushing and attacked me when we were trying to make peace with each other. To the point even my four year old knew it was wrong. We were done then.
Bobby. I can tell you all the reasons that other people think he’s the wrong choice. All the moments people use. My emotions are extreme. He is emotionally stunted. The truth is, in the worst times of my emotional issues, I’m too complicated for him. I chose him knowing that. I chose him partially because of that, he doesn’t make me face my emotions because he doesn’t see them. It is entirely possible that that makes him the wrong choice for me. Obviously I have severe issues personally and survive them most of the time by avoiding them completely. Someone who made me face them might be a better choice. The side effect is that he doesn’t know what to do with me at my worst. That we push each other’s buttons and seem unable to stop. The difference is, when everything feels like it’s going to fall to pieces, we’ve been able to speak with each other and fix things, so far.
I guess I don’t think Bobby is the completely wrong choice. In any circumstances. Well, as long as we are willing to keep working together to make things work. If we don’t, he’ll be the worst choice I’ve ever made in partner. Because it will be the one to truly break my heart.
Queen Mab
Original Character
550 Word Count
Partners: Auberon auberonsun, Hank alloy_avenger, and Bobby animus_nocendi