So........... Fam's here
My family is arriving... I think they think I don't know that my grandpa has very little days left.
I think I was the first one to really come to terms with that. I wish they would stop acting like I am that 10yr old kid, who took news badly. I'm 19, and have gone through more than most my family just to come to the point to almost an emotionless state. I just wish they would feel better about what is happening. I wish they would just accept the inevitable, and thank heaven for the days we had with him. It takes this, this, to bring a family closer. It is ridiculous, and I am glad though that we are all here for him.
He is great, and his legacy will live on forever. He has touched my heart, and has been the father I never really had. He never cared if I was gay, or different; he loved me anyway I came, because he wanted nothing more than for me to be happy. He will be proud of me, in heaven he will hear my prayers. I love him, and though I may be devestated; I will live, in his honor.
Soon I will be in Mochu Kiiake... I cannot do anything that brings great entertainment. Unless it is something that he and I did, and it only inspire peaceful and lasting memories of the times we had. For 49 days I will be in mourning, and for 49 days I will not eat meat. Soley fruits and vegetables, and no soda. So I just ask that you keep this in mind, and not try to force these things upon me.
I think I was the first one to really come to terms with that. I wish they would stop acting like I am that 10yr old kid, who took news badly. I'm 19, and have gone through more than most my family just to come to the point to almost an emotionless state. I just wish they would feel better about what is happening. I wish they would just accept the inevitable, and thank heaven for the days we had with him. It takes this, this, to bring a family closer. It is ridiculous, and I am glad though that we are all here for him.
He is great, and his legacy will live on forever. He has touched my heart, and has been the father I never really had. He never cared if I was gay, or different; he loved me anyway I came, because he wanted nothing more than for me to be happy. He will be proud of me, in heaven he will hear my prayers. I love him, and though I may be devestated; I will live, in his honor.
Soon I will be in Mochu Kiiake... I cannot do anything that brings great entertainment. Unless it is something that he and I did, and it only inspire peaceful and lasting memories of the times we had. For 49 days I will be in mourning, and for 49 days I will not eat meat. Soley fruits and vegetables, and no soda. So I just ask that you keep this in mind, and not try to force these things upon me.