I come from the water
Yup...well the past week I have had off has been proably the shittest fucking week of my whole life!I would rather have worked this week then sat around doing nothing and thinking about stuff...thats all I have done!
I dont know evreything has been really crapy...I think Michael hates me or hes like sic of me or he doesnt want me around or something along those lines...it sux so bad cause were not friends like we used to be...I always try like sitting around with him and actually haveing a conversasations like we used to but its like he doesnt really care about what I have to say and he doesnt care to tell me anything or something...I also dont think he wants to play music with me anymore...I dont know it proabaly all sounds stupid...but weve always been really close and I dont know what Id do with out him...I dont care how gay or stupid it sounds...I consider Michael to be my brother like my better half my left lung...and it would just suck if we went friends
:(
I know what is doing it im pretty shure...and Im guessing all in all what is going on was a pretty dumb move from all angles...not just cause it will fuck up our friendship but because it was just stupid of me to even think that that could work.
So I guess I prbaly need to do whats right and end this...just say fuck it...Ive been working on that for about a year now...and I guess this is what i needed to actually prove to me that Im an idiot!
Im thinking about leaving next Thursday going to somewhere thats not here for a whole week...Theres really nothing here for me...I basically have no band,I feel like my bestfirend hates my fucking guts...and Ill just sit here like I did this week dreading Thursday!
I hate bitching and I hate wining...but this is the first time in a long timie i have actually felt like shit...
not just lieing to get attention or making my self sad...but I really feel like fucking hell and it sux!
I dont know evreything has been really crapy...I think Michael hates me or hes like sic of me or he doesnt want me around or something along those lines...it sux so bad cause were not friends like we used to be...I always try like sitting around with him and actually haveing a conversasations like we used to but its like he doesnt really care about what I have to say and he doesnt care to tell me anything or something...I also dont think he wants to play music with me anymore...I dont know it proabaly all sounds stupid...but weve always been really close and I dont know what Id do with out him...I dont care how gay or stupid it sounds...I consider Michael to be my brother like my better half my left lung...and it would just suck if we went friends
:(
I know what is doing it im pretty shure...and Im guessing all in all what is going on was a pretty dumb move from all angles...not just cause it will fuck up our friendship but because it was just stupid of me to even think that that could work.
So I guess I prbaly need to do whats right and end this...just say fuck it...Ive been working on that for about a year now...and I guess this is what i needed to actually prove to me that Im an idiot!
Im thinking about leaving next Thursday going to somewhere thats not here for a whole week...Theres really nothing here for me...I basically have no band,I feel like my bestfirend hates my fucking guts...and Ill just sit here like I did this week dreading Thursday!
I hate bitching and I hate wining...but this is the first time in a long timie i have actually felt like shit...
not just lieing to get attention or making my self sad...but I really feel like fucking hell and it sux!