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it's funny how the one person you never stopped caring about or being there for can completely turn their back on you, when they find temporary happiness with someone else. i've never done anything in this world to deserve half the shit you've given to me. and it's shown through your disrespect. you don't even realize that one day, i'm realllllly not gona be there.
and that's how it goes.
you're walking around with my heart tucked into your pocket. and the instant that she breaks your heart again, you think you can pull me in your life again, like i suddenly matter. you pull me in, you pull me out. and if anyone knew half the shit you've said, they'd hate you for it. kind of like i do. what was the point? so you think I'm still waiting around? you think i'll be there when she leaves the brusies on your face. tears down your self-esteem to the core. and she'll make you hate yourself. i won't play nurse, you know. i won't be a friend. i won't be what you expect me to be. there will be nothing of you left when she's done. you'll lose yourself. you'll lose me. and i won't feel bad. i'd like to see you get your shit straight. i'd like to see you act as half the man I knew back in the day. but it's obvious that won't happen.
one day you will look back. you will remember the cuss words. the middle fingers. the good times. and the bad times. and you'll remember that i never did anything intentionally to hurt you. i've only tried to help you. and you'll look for someone half as good as me, but you won't find me in someone else. cause no one will love you like i do. no one.
i'll be your one regret.
and just like that. you lost me.