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the stars must have been out last night. and i got lucky. i saw you for the first time in months, and i couldn't breathe. a best friend by my side to help me ease the nervousness. it was supposed to be the other way around. i looked ugly. i felt gross. i let you see me like that anyways. it was like old times, only not so at ease. i couldn't stop starring. it's like you shined in the night. you made me laugh. it felt like i never lost you. and for the first time in years i feel complete again. [i'm not missing a damn thing]. i wanted so badly, to hold you. and be yours. but right now; i'll take friendship, if that's what you really want. if your happy. and you look so cute. older. i love it. and i love watching you grow up, into such a beautiful, compassionate [often angry] person. it makes me miss you so much. those eyes are breath-taking. but everything about you seems to have me swept off my feet. your all i see when i look around. the only boy i love. it's been interesting. and touching your feet. massage. [woo la la] wasn't that bad. oh! how i hate feet. but i'd do anything for you. that was pure love without a doubt. i want you to know that i understand that were just friends. and even though i'm in love with you, that doesn't change my relationship with you one bit. i may hold you up high, and never want to hurt you. but in the end, it's said; just friends. [you left in the night without me. i want you.]