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he's convinced that i fucked his friend. what is that? and now i know why i haven't missed you one bit. god. did i really care about you. and now i could careless. all those long nights making out under the stars, like nothing else mattered. i can't believe how things got so fucked up. i had the best sex of my life with you. i know it all went down hill for a reason. you had me in tears. such disrespect. and i think i deserve more. for the first time in weeks i finally thought about us again. and then those thoughts vanished just as quickly as the way i feel. ex boyfriend. and he wants to get back with me. and it was a long drawn out night. and i need advice. i don't know what to do. ex has a hold on me. but i know it's wrong. and i remember sitting. eating. chillin'. and having sex. and i couldn't have asked for more. and i did love him. i did. so why not do it?