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so i leave early in the morning. i don't want to go home. back to work. i hate working. i think i just realized that. lol. it takes so much time away from my life. and i don't want to look back on life knowing i worked it all away. but i have to. it pays the bills. i can't depend on anyone, but myself. when i am home all i do is work, sleep, and barely have time to hang out with my friends.
but i had alottt of fun this time and i can't wait until i come back here. which will be awhile because it's so hard for me to get off work without feeling bad. knowing that people have to work doubles. and have to practically kill themselves just so i can have time off. it's hectic i know, and i can't thank my staff enough for being amazing and supportive...everything. i am lucky to have such amazing people to work with.
on another note. i am super excited now about warped tour. SAMI AND ASHLEYYY are going! what's even better is there both meeting me at the airport when i get home. aww. what a lovely surprise. esp. because they care about me more then my mom does. which is kind of weird. well, let me re-pharse that...my mom has been in la la land with her boyfriend and doesn't have alot of time for me. so my friends are all i got. and if i had a boyfriend, i'd have him too.
sooo..anyways i'm sitting at stephen's clubhouse thing, he's working out. he keeps picking on me..too bad i'm cute and he's not.
no but really, i think i'm going to miss him the most because he's so nice. and i don't know. it's hard to explain.
OHH YESS. and the story with Nick. Him and I were talking before i came up here...nothing was going to happen because my bro. was saying how he might have an STD or something. but anywho, we were talking, but once i got up here, and hung out with him, i realized that i really wasn't interested at all. and somehow in the mist of all that, i end up having a crush on stephen. weird how that kind of shit happens eh? haha.
i'm sure i'll write more later. leaving here makes me sad this time. and i' ve done alot of thinking about my future these past few days..i'm confused about alott of things. and it sucks.
well i'm gona go before he comes hunting for me. lol he won't he's working out. gee whiz!!... and eww he's gona be all gross and sweaty. gee that's nice. :)