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the boy is sick so i might not see him tomorrow. makes me bummed out. because he's the one thing lately that gives me a reason to breathe. he's too kind. and i adore him for it. and he'll help me move on. but how long will it last? it only lasts so long. got a friend request today i never expected in my life, but i approved. and it'll be 2 weeks on thursday and it feels like an eternity. i don't know what to do. what to say. how to act. how to feel. it's like i'm numb. girl talk [ily ash]. shopping. spending money. keeps me happy. i'm missing my bettie. content. i'm happy with life, don't get me wrong, but i miss you. i miss you more then you'll ever know. do you ever think of me? how do you sleep at night darling? cause i haven't slept well in months. and soon the sun will soak my skin dry so i can't move. and i can finally breathe. your all that's on my mind. i've been lying. your all that keeps me here. and maybe someone could help me. [get you back]. he'll help me get over you. i'm happy with life. i'm just miserable without you.