whats going on?
I think that I have lost my best friend. He won't call me at all. He could be really busy but it's not like him not to return my phone calls in 4 months. It's May and I haven't talked to him since the end of January. It hurts me so much. I miss him. This is the guy that I had such a hard time just getting over liking him, now i think that I have lost him for good. I will probably see him or his dad at fair in July but that is so far away. Nick is the one guy that I thought would always be in my life. The 1st person I called when Mom died. (even if he didn;t answer at 1 am). I think that he is the 1st guy I ever loved too. So it's hard to just lose him as a friend all together. Why won't he call me to let me know how he is? It's not like him at all. He may jsut have a girl that won't let him but he wouldn't let anyone control him that much. Nick is a free spirit that does whatever he wants. He has always been that way, and he is too stubborn to change. This is the guy that every time I saw him he would pretty much say he admired me for being strong with all that I have gone through in life. The guy who's 21st bday was the 1st and only (so far) drinking party that I have gone to. To accept the fact that he may be gone from my life forever really hurts. I could be wrong. But I don't get a good feeling from this. I know that he has stopped talking to me before but never for this long. The longest was 3 months and he was depressed and I got this bad feeling about him. I think every night for those 3 months I had a nightmare that he killed himself. But this time I just have a feeling that I am going to lose him for good. Yeah he told me before that he sees our friendship continuing through the years but than why won't he call me or anything? I miss him so much.