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I'm not dead? I just didn't have internet for a while. Then I just plain old haven't gotten around to blogging. Doing more vlogging, really.
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I wanted to write on something now, though. Since I think this is going to take longer to find. I've been sinking back into Harry Potter again. Not in the way I was before, with fanfiction. I never fit in in that community. Not sure why, really, but even the ones I come across here, they are just..Idk. but in Wizard Rock instead. Which is amazing. And so much fun.
And I'm making some friends. I can name two who I'm confident actually like me. The others either haven't decided except three. Three who I think don't like me. I'm not sure why they keep me around and it's totally wash over form high school where I always wanted to be with the cool kids and never was. Well suddenly the people I know in the wizard rock community are the cool people. They are in the in crowd. I mean really? I ate pizza and talked to Alex Carpenter about his music? To me, that's a huge deal. And I hope I get over that. But yeah, let's all thank are lucky stars that I was able to maintain some conversation twice without fangirlling all over myself. Meanwhile I walked to the subway squeeing and laughing, I'm sure people thought I was crazy.
Really though, I think these people I feel irrationally afraid of wouldn't just keep me around. From the way they talk, they let you know if you're not welcome. Or at least they try. I'm sure I'll maintain some insecurity, but whatever. A lot of this crept up today after a Meangirl-esq dream about all this. Like not the plot of Mean Girls, obviously. Just, you know, kinda crazy bitchy high school girl against looser high school girl movie thing. It was horrible. I woke up feeling bad and kept thinking about it all day. Ahh I'm just going to sleep. That was my random update.
youtube.com/user/CountryApple1x2
I wanted to write on something now, though. Since I think this is going to take longer to find. I've been sinking back into Harry Potter again. Not in the way I was before, with fanfiction. I never fit in in that community. Not sure why, really, but even the ones I come across here, they are just..Idk. but in Wizard Rock instead. Which is amazing. And so much fun.
And I'm making some friends. I can name two who I'm confident actually like me. The others either haven't decided except three. Three who I think don't like me. I'm not sure why they keep me around and it's totally wash over form high school where I always wanted to be with the cool kids and never was. Well suddenly the people I know in the wizard rock community are the cool people. They are in the in crowd. I mean really? I ate pizza and talked to Alex Carpenter about his music? To me, that's a huge deal. And I hope I get over that. But yeah, let's all thank are lucky stars that I was able to maintain some conversation twice without fangirlling all over myself. Meanwhile I walked to the subway squeeing and laughing, I'm sure people thought I was crazy.
Really though, I think these people I feel irrationally afraid of wouldn't just keep me around. From the way they talk, they let you know if you're not welcome. Or at least they try. I'm sure I'll maintain some insecurity, but whatever. A lot of this crept up today after a Meangirl-esq dream about all this. Like not the plot of Mean Girls, obviously. Just, you know, kinda crazy bitchy high school girl against looser high school girl movie thing. It was horrible. I woke up feeling bad and kept thinking about it all day. Ahh I'm just going to sleep. That was my random update.