im kinda hurtin right now....
yes yes i have not updated in liek for ever n a day....soo here is goes....ummm my life right now is not to bad...i mean its a little off track....umm i went to florida fer two weeks n i had a blast well sum of it i did....all it did was rain n rain n rain down there....i was kinda disappointed....but its all good....i was thinkin about movin down there but not nemore....not after what my bro did to me....but lets not go there....soo in other news....i got promoted to cashier at work....im kinda excited n im kinda not ya know....i mean its kewl n all but i always get the mean guest....n if u guys kno me i cant hold my temper....soo i wanted to like kill these guest i had the other day....but enuff about that on to other things....well lets see i was talkin to this one guy....but i just i dunno we just stoped talkin n it hurt me....REAL BAD....i mean i really liek this kid not like love like but liek him ALOT....n all i did was put him threw hell n back....i eman i lied to him n all that stuff....n he didnt need to be put threw that stuff....he was nuttin but nice to me...n half of the time i treated him iek shit....n i sorta feel bad for it....n then tonite i told him that since we dont talk nemore i think we need to keep it like that....n i feel really bad that i said that but then again i dont....cuz everything that he told me i really actually belived him....but i think he was just sayin that to tell me what i wanna here....n everything i told him i really meant....i think what i do is i get to much attached to sumbody i liek n i really start to fall fer him....n then in the end i end up gettin hurt....n right now i am hurtin really bad right now....n i dont know why cuz ipromised myself i wouldnt cry over ne boy unless i lOved him....but why do i feel soo bad right now?....like im broken up inside!!!....why am i hurting?....i dont think nebody can answer these questions but me....n i cant even answer them....but enuff on that topic....soo onto the next one....i finally seen my sister liek 3 or 4 weeks ago...n im really happy i did....im soo happy she is back in my life nOw....its likei found my missin piece in my life....i mean i went almost 4 years w/ out talkin to my sister....n thats because of her asshole of a husband....srry thats what i think of him right now....but OMG!!!! the kids have gotten sooo big....its like i didnt even know who they were at first....but becky remember me....oh i will never ferget that big smile on her face when i came over....but robert didnt kno who i was because he was just really little the last gtime i seen him....but he has opened up alot more now that i have been comming around n that makes me sooo happy to know that he remembers me when i come over....hmmm what else can i talk about....ummm i think thats it fer now....i guess ill go nn ill update this thing whenver i get the chance....aight peace love n chicken grease....