My Favourite Sweatpants Dick

[countingcr0ws]

Title: My Favourite Sweatpants Dick
Author: countingcr0ws
Pairing/ Characters: Yunjae
Rating: PG
Form: One-shot
Genre: AR, College!AU, Fluff, Frottage, Happy, Romance
Warning: Sweatpants dick only happens like in the fourth last page of the story. It's quite a respectable fic, to be honest.
Summary: Inspired by sweatpants dick from The Feeling of Your Skin

Comments

[countingcr0ws]

omy gosh, you dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DICKKKKKKK!!!!!!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW FRIGHTENED I WAS WHEN I READ THE BEGINNING OF YOUR COMMENT??? I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, WAS THE FIC LIKE REALLY BAD AND YOU WERE ADMITTING BECAUSE PEOPLE DON'T USUALLY GO LIKE 1. "WOW, YOUR FIC SUCKS, LOL." ANOTHER POSSIBILITY I WAS ENTERTAINING WAS ALSO LIKE SHIT, NOW MY WAYWARD FINGERS HAS GOTTEN ME INTO TROUBLE FOR REAL AND YOU WERE PROBABLY GOING TO BE LIKE 2. "WOW, I DON'T USUALLY SAY THIS BUT YOU'RE HECK RUDE????" MY HEART WAS LITERALLY LIKE BEATING THE SHIT OUT. YOU KNOW LIKE WHEN YOU'RE REALLY REALLY KEYED UP OR FRIGHTENED AND YOU CAN LITERALLY FEEL YOU LITTLE RABBIT HEART IN YOUR LION'S CHEST?? I WAS LITERALLY LIKE SCARED AND RIVETED, OMGGGGG, /PUSHES YOU INTO THE RIVER, SERIOUSLY, MY GOSH. /FANS SELF.

BUT ANYWAYYYYYY. /CATCHES YOU WINK LIKE A FLYING KISS AND SLOT IT INTO THE STRING OF MY THONGS, you know like those stripping shows? I'm a studddddddd. That aside, my god, seriously though, my heart, I swear. And nooooo, I'm all sorts of uncool actually. And I had like a personal lesson yesterday where I realised that I was a very shitty person actually. So like idk, I'm from business school, my grades aren't great but bus school is one of the top schools in my university and whenever you go like I'm from business people usually go like ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. And I've never noticed but I've kind of been really full of myself, idk, and I keep thinking that i deserve things to go right, I deserve to be chosen for jobs and stuff because I have a degree, I'm from the best business school in the state and stuff. Which is really wrong, tbh. And the whole thought has actually affected the way I view the people around me? Like the company I'm interning at is a Family business and some of my colleagues have been here for 20 years or so. The whole bitchy attitude and the nervousness at having to go out to work in just a year made me think to myself that I want to switch jobs instead of working 20 years at one place, and I can do that because I have a degree and as long as I build up my resume, I can keep moving every 4-5 years. Which is like I'm essentially looking down on my colleagues by assuming that they've been here for 20 years because they don't have a degree which makes them less competitive, like wow, rude. As in I've been comparing myself to them like apples to apples even though A-A isn't even right, but my colleagues are from the previous generation like my parents who had lesser opportunities than I have. I have been coddled, fretted upon, and made to excel. Even so, my grades aren't great, my degree is just a paper, and I am but a business student, instead of a Med or Law student even though that means nothing either and I just realised like what a big douche bag with this super huge ego I've been? I've been so comfortable with my excesses and privileges that while I'm aware that they are not mine and but ephemeral, I haven't been striving to be worthy of them throughout my 20 years of existence. I don't know how to put it properly, but TL;DR, I'm quite a terrible person actually. It was quite an epiphany and I'm not exceptional. I am not special. I skimmed through David McCullough's speech at Wellesley high school (I was like /introspective, I'm not special, I'm a dick actually and I remembered about his speech that made rounds on the internet and looked it up, ugh) and I made myself a desktop wallpaper to remind myself to not be a raging douchebag. It's a subtle mental thing, and I lack that crucial element. :/ I don't work hard enough for the things that I want and I don't understand enough that I am just simply a privileged individual made up of efforts that are not mine. I kind of suck pretty hard actually. Wow, downer. But I haven't actually really told anybody about this and your comment actually made me remember my epiphany. Tbh, if you replied yesterday I wouldn't have replied this way. Ah, life and the changes each day brings.

[db5k]

i don't really know what to say tbh our lives are quite different but i really think i'm a pretty shitty person too. like, i always think what i have isn't enough. i deserve better. why are my siblings getting this and that and why am i only getting this in life, a lot of my grades were better than theirs! but then i think as a person i don't even do anything to deserve or be worthy of those things i want. but i'm like fuck this shit i still want em. and sometimes i feel like i'm such an ass because even if i don't say shit out loud, i am just so judgemental. like i feel like i'm so much better than a lot of people but i'm probably really not. maybe i'm just doing this to make myself feel better because #insecurities. but anyway, i'm still very very young (that's not an excuse tbh😂) and i'm a confused kid. let me drown in my depression+self pity party and just let me continue being an ungrateful and judgemental person for now. hahaha sorry if i'm just not making sense and if everything i said feels like it's totally unrelated to what you said..... and if i sound like such a bad person. a lot of things in my life just don't go the way i want them to and i feel so deprived of a lot of things DDDDx idek. i'm lost. ok bye

[countingcr0ws]

sorry for the late reply. but anyway, i agree that you age isn't an excuse but i also think that age gives you a certain right to be bratty if you're young, at least. i think at my old assed age where i'm going out to work and stuff i don't have the right to look down on others and stuff like it wouldn't bring me far. ultimately i think that you should still have a certain human empathy and to knock yourself down a few pegs with the understanding that if your story is special then so are others and if you didn't come to where you are easily, neither did people and they're not any less than you, idk. and i think about your siblings that's a pretty normal thing and i think you sound like an older sibling and from an older sibling perspective, i've never been particularly jealous of my younger siblings like maybe because our age difference is pretty big, idk so i mostly want them to know what i've learnt, idk, i'm fucking old sometimes, i speak on the assumption that you're younger than me, what. but i think that wanting more when you're young is okay because it makes you ambitious and you should be ambitious when you're young, lean, mean, angry, idk. but i think that to be worthy of what you want, you should work hard for it and i haven't been working very hard nowadays. i think so many people give me the impression that not working hard is fine (tumblr for example when they celebrate the act of being half full) and idk, i need to be half empty and go and get things done, idk. i'm so rude too. :/