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Well I guess I have a lot to say but almost no time to say it in. I go to work in like 35 minutes.
School is fucking nerve racking. Don't worry, I'm gonna spare you all the bitching about how tough my classes are, I chose them, and I also choose to try to do well in them. Needless to say thats a good portion of my stress-factor.
Krissy and Andrew are going out. It presents complications for other people apparantly. However, I can't help but be relieved because it solves sooo many for me:
1. Andrew has a woman, no more being upset when I can't be there.
2. Andrew has a better understanding of why I have been the way I have.
3. I can spend time with the two of them and not have to worry about conflict (they hated eachother up until this last weekend).
4. Andrew's happier.
5. Krissy's happier.
I hope to god it lasts. I'm not either of them so I can't attest to how they feel for eachother, but if it does it makes all this complication about what we're all doing after high-school a LOT easier. And if worse comes to worse and they do break up atleast they might still have some compassion for eachother and being friends won't be quite so hard for them after all.
I've committed my self to sending and altamadum (sp?) to Britt's parents on our way out of Fort Wayne, "Fuck you, you're not welcome in my house." I hate being so powerless. Apparantly Britt's mom thinks I was lying and trying to get her to make up excuses for why Britt was a whopping 15 minutes late getting home. Bull shit, she was on the phone and I told Britt to tell her about how we couldn't leave Omega since the clerk wouldn't come out to take our fucking bill for 5 minutes. Yes its an excuse, but its true... bitch. Also she seriously needs to stand up to Britt's dad, its not HIS house, its the family's. As for her father, I don't get how he can preach to her about being responsible, not fighting with her brother, and w/e else he sees fit to bitch about when he fucking stays up late and gets drunk every night. He's also the one who starts fights, Britt's a pacifist and no matter how many times she says "yes father" he insists on yelling more. Is there something about complete and utter complacency with what you want that pisses you off? He accussed her of lying about going to Aaron's birthday party at Omega last night... WTF?!?!?!? :
"What kind of 18 year old boy would have his birthday party at an old person restraunt, I bet you didn't even go there, ya know what? I'm gonna call Omega while I'm at work tomorrow and see what really was happening!"
my response, "What kind of guy? Aaron you asshole. He likes Omega. Is that so hard to believe? As for you calling there tomorrow, go ahead you faithless bastard. I'm pretty damn sure Bristol can even confirm the fact that it took forever for the clerk to ring us up too.
"Were you smoking? YOU WERE SMOKING WEREN'T YOU!"
my response, "We were in the fucking smoking section, and everyone there was over 18 save for 4 people and guess what, they all smoked! Its funny how you tend to smell like smoke when you sit in a closed off room smokers for almost 2 hours."
Luckily her dad is completely unstable and he'll probably call off the month of grounding he put her under. Either A. he'll realize what he said was completely uncalled for or B. He'll call Omega and make an ass of himself.
Kim pissed me off this morning, but I got over. She's having some problems with something. I'm not entirely sure what. I just started talking to her and saying what was going on with the last couple of days and she got pretty... well I guess it was a combination of things, condescending, synical, and apathetic. I was complaining about Britt's parents and she proceeded to say things along the lines of "I have no sympathy" and "I've got it worse" and "Britt's parents are completely justified in not trusting her." Needless to say... that really pissed me off. Whatever it is that upsetting Kim I feel bad for her, but that holier than thou shit is never called for. Ya know, I would have had no problem if she had symply shared her problems with me. And if thats sooo hard to do, then she could have just said that sucks... even with sarcasm. But just cuz you're having a bad day doesn't give you the right to demean other people's problems. I guess that was just icing on the cake.
I'm sick, I have to work, Britt's in trouble, and School is really sucking right now. I don't want sympathy or compasion, and I definately don't want anyone to indulge me with that "you really do have it tough" bull shit. I just want to get through the next few weeks in peace and be able to vent my frustrations to my friends without them trying to solve my problems or play them down. This is my life, I can handle it.
Not all of that was in refference to Kim but this is. You treat Britt and I like we don't care. I went out my way to try and find you a date to prom before I found out Rita was definately taking you. I ask you if you're ok. I hold my tongue 90% of the time when I want to talk to you about something that's going to upset you, just because I DO life isn't so easy for you, but it's not for any of us. If its not responsibilities, it's relationships, if not that than friends, if not then parents. I've been doing my best to be your friend and all I seem to do is upset you more.
Anyway, I think I'm gonna be late to work, cya Later. I love you all. Any coments about what I've said better be civil or I'm gonna lay a thrashing on all of you're pets. I'm not having a good day.
School is fucking nerve racking. Don't worry, I'm gonna spare you all the bitching about how tough my classes are, I chose them, and I also choose to try to do well in them. Needless to say thats a good portion of my stress-factor.
Krissy and Andrew are going out. It presents complications for other people apparantly. However, I can't help but be relieved because it solves sooo many for me:
1. Andrew has a woman, no more being upset when I can't be there.
2. Andrew has a better understanding of why I have been the way I have.
3. I can spend time with the two of them and not have to worry about conflict (they hated eachother up until this last weekend).
4. Andrew's happier.
5. Krissy's happier.
I hope to god it lasts. I'm not either of them so I can't attest to how they feel for eachother, but if it does it makes all this complication about what we're all doing after high-school a LOT easier. And if worse comes to worse and they do break up atleast they might still have some compassion for eachother and being friends won't be quite so hard for them after all.
I've committed my self to sending and altamadum (sp?) to Britt's parents on our way out of Fort Wayne, "Fuck you, you're not welcome in my house." I hate being so powerless. Apparantly Britt's mom thinks I was lying and trying to get her to make up excuses for why Britt was a whopping 15 minutes late getting home. Bull shit, she was on the phone and I told Britt to tell her about how we couldn't leave Omega since the clerk wouldn't come out to take our fucking bill for 5 minutes. Yes its an excuse, but its true... bitch. Also she seriously needs to stand up to Britt's dad, its not HIS house, its the family's. As for her father, I don't get how he can preach to her about being responsible, not fighting with her brother, and w/e else he sees fit to bitch about when he fucking stays up late and gets drunk every night. He's also the one who starts fights, Britt's a pacifist and no matter how many times she says "yes father" he insists on yelling more. Is there something about complete and utter complacency with what you want that pisses you off? He accussed her of lying about going to Aaron's birthday party at Omega last night... WTF?!?!?!? :
"What kind of 18 year old boy would have his birthday party at an old person restraunt, I bet you didn't even go there, ya know what? I'm gonna call Omega while I'm at work tomorrow and see what really was happening!"
my response, "What kind of guy? Aaron you asshole. He likes Omega. Is that so hard to believe? As for you calling there tomorrow, go ahead you faithless bastard. I'm pretty damn sure Bristol can even confirm the fact that it took forever for the clerk to ring us up too.
"Were you smoking? YOU WERE SMOKING WEREN'T YOU!"
my response, "We were in the fucking smoking section, and everyone there was over 18 save for 4 people and guess what, they all smoked! Its funny how you tend to smell like smoke when you sit in a closed off room smokers for almost 2 hours."
Luckily her dad is completely unstable and he'll probably call off the month of grounding he put her under. Either A. he'll realize what he said was completely uncalled for or B. He'll call Omega and make an ass of himself.
Kim pissed me off this morning, but I got over. She's having some problems with something. I'm not entirely sure what. I just started talking to her and saying what was going on with the last couple of days and she got pretty... well I guess it was a combination of things, condescending, synical, and apathetic. I was complaining about Britt's parents and she proceeded to say things along the lines of "I have no sympathy" and "I've got it worse" and "Britt's parents are completely justified in not trusting her." Needless to say... that really pissed me off. Whatever it is that upsetting Kim I feel bad for her, but that holier than thou shit is never called for. Ya know, I would have had no problem if she had symply shared her problems with me. And if thats sooo hard to do, then she could have just said that sucks... even with sarcasm. But just cuz you're having a bad day doesn't give you the right to demean other people's problems. I guess that was just icing on the cake.
I'm sick, I have to work, Britt's in trouble, and School is really sucking right now. I don't want sympathy or compasion, and I definately don't want anyone to indulge me with that "you really do have it tough" bull shit. I just want to get through the next few weeks in peace and be able to vent my frustrations to my friends without them trying to solve my problems or play them down. This is my life, I can handle it.
Not all of that was in refference to Kim but this is. You treat Britt and I like we don't care. I went out my way to try and find you a date to prom before I found out Rita was definately taking you. I ask you if you're ok. I hold my tongue 90% of the time when I want to talk to you about something that's going to upset you, just because I DO life isn't so easy for you, but it's not for any of us. If its not responsibilities, it's relationships, if not that than friends, if not then parents. I've been doing my best to be your friend and all I seem to do is upset you more.
Anyway, I think I'm gonna be late to work, cya Later. I love you all. Any coments about what I've said better be civil or I'm gonna lay a thrashing on all of you're pets. I'm not having a good day.