home is where the heart is
yeah im not really too good at keeping this stupid thing updated.. but whatever its not like anyone really reads them haha.
i went to michigan for christmas break and it was so much fun. everyone there is freakin awesome. they're all so warm and inviting, they never asked questions or passed judgement upon me they just accepted me ya know? i was invited over to their houses and to hang out with them and you could tell it was more than them just being polite. i miss it so much... i dont know why but like i got home and just ached to be back there, it was like i always had this feeling that i had lost something and it hasn't quite gone away since i've been there. i dont know why my mom even moved here... i can't tell you how awesome it must be to grow up around so much family, i wish i had that. i know for a fact im going to live somewhere around family so my kids will have that opportunity because i wish i had it. not like im not grateful for being here and making the friends i have now, because dont' get me wrong i love them to death its just different... my mom wants to move back there next year and to be honest i really wouldn't mind it. in fact i kinda want to. im sick of everything here.. especially the shit that goes on at my school its just ridiculous and i shouldn't have to put up with it. and im sick of stuipd annoying people with absolutely no class. its such a different atmosphere in michigan, yes some of them can be snobby because they're so wealthy but its an overrall more sophisticated place to be and that feels so good to be in that kind of place.
the only thing thats making me not want to move are my friends and volleyball at woodbridge. thats it... i don't know what i'd do without michelle and julia they're there for me through anything and everything and i know that i wont be judged when im with them. id take them with me if i could. hehe but i have other friends that i dont want to leave out and you know who you are :) volleyball is just like my escape and i can forget about everything in my life and just play the sport. its so much fun too. and its so good there because nothing is predetermined. there you earn your glory on the court, its' never handed to you. i love that about playing at woodbridge.
christmas, besides going to my aunts and seeing my cousin alex and going to the movies with michelle and jazzyyyy sucked real bad. i hate my dad so much, it makes me sick thinking of him. i dont want to go into detail about what happened, but it was awkward and horrible to experience. im just telling everyone who has a mom and a dad that get along and are still so much in love to totally cherish that and take advantage of it. i dont ever want anyone to experience their parents going through a divorce like mine did, and are still going through now. just be thankful for the family that you have because they really do love you.
Amber Pacific- Here we stand
Here we stand again
Another day has passed us
With its lack of change
And all we have is what we share
And all we want is someone else to be there
And if the sun will set tonight
Hold our secrets up to the sky
As our shadows grow there's nothing left to hide
And if you ever doubt
You will know that I still wonder
How many times did I compare
The stars to your eyes
We will make it through
No matter the cost
We've gone this far
Why not find out how it works out
For you and me
We'll make it through
I thought we were lost
But somehow we haven't found a way
And I hope that we never do
It's hard to get to understand
When all your lives in our hands
And don't stop when you've never been closer
Just 'cause you don't know what matters most
So it won't always be so clearly right in front of us
And if the sun will set tonight
Hold our secrets up to the sky
As our shadows grow there's nothing left to hide
And if you ever doubt
You will know that I still wonder
How many times did I compare
The stars to your eyes
We will make it through
No matter the cost
We've gone this far
Why not find out how it works out
For you and me
We'll make it through
I thought we were lost
But somehow we haven't found a way
And I hope that we never do
Never do
Doesn't really matter how it all began
Forsaken
Got this far without knowing who we truely are
I will never doubt that
We will make it through
No matter the cost
We've gone this far
Why not find out how it works out
For you and me
We'll make it through
I thought we were lost
But somehow we haven't found a way
And I hope that we never do
