the pills....again
I did something waaaay stupid again. Remember how I promised I wouldn't indulge in pill taking again? Well I broke that promise.
Two weeks ago I decided just as I woke up that I woud go to the pharmacy and buy strong anti headache pills containing codein. I went there and bought a botle of 100 pills. That's not the bad part, the bad part was that I stole them. I walked right into the pharmacy, asked for the pills that by the way you can only get with a prescription but since its swaziland they trust you and sell them to you anyway. So I got the pills then I walked around the place a bit and left, without paying. They cost like $60 american dollars. You wouldn't believe the high that these pills produce. I ended up taking 20 a day. When the pills were finishing I decided to try going for a day without them, and I couldn't, I was addicted. I was worried so I told mom and dad, they nearly killed me, yelled at me and even told me i was going back to chile. But I went cold turkey and stopped taking them. First day without them my whole body itched and I was in physical pain, all my limbs hurt, and I fet I needed those pills badly. The second day I was still in pain and I slept all day, third day i was in pain and extremelly anxious...and so on.
I'm ok now. But now, for real, I'm not doing that ever again. I know I say I won't but I mean it this time. I have got to stop with the self destructive behaviour.
My brother left yesterday morning at 4am, we said goodbye in our jammies and he left on a taxi to the airport and then to chile. I felt awful, I miss him already and he only ;left yesterday. I love my brother to death and he is my best friend. I miss you Count Omega.....xoxoxoxo
Two weeks ago I decided just as I woke up that I woud go to the pharmacy and buy strong anti headache pills containing codein. I went there and bought a botle of 100 pills. That's not the bad part, the bad part was that I stole them. I walked right into the pharmacy, asked for the pills that by the way you can only get with a prescription but since its swaziland they trust you and sell them to you anyway. So I got the pills then I walked around the place a bit and left, without paying. They cost like $60 american dollars. You wouldn't believe the high that these pills produce. I ended up taking 20 a day. When the pills were finishing I decided to try going for a day without them, and I couldn't, I was addicted. I was worried so I told mom and dad, they nearly killed me, yelled at me and even told me i was going back to chile. But I went cold turkey and stopped taking them. First day without them my whole body itched and I was in physical pain, all my limbs hurt, and I fet I needed those pills badly. The second day I was still in pain and I slept all day, third day i was in pain and extremelly anxious...and so on.
I'm ok now. But now, for real, I'm not doing that ever again. I know I say I won't but I mean it this time. I have got to stop with the self destructive behaviour.
My brother left yesterday morning at 4am, we said goodbye in our jammies and he left on a taxi to the airport and then to chile. I felt awful, I miss him already and he only ;left yesterday. I love my brother to death and he is my best friend. I miss you Count Omega.....xoxoxoxo