Some goal setting, and more discussion of mental health
After what feels like a very long and guilty pause, I have finally caught up with the flist. I love that feeling of relief and satisfaction that being up to date on something brings!
I'm finding it hard to keep on top of all my projects at the moment. Between cleaning my house (a massive undertaking as I have a bit of a hoarding issue and haven't really thoroughly cleaned since maybe two years ago), trying to sort out my craft and fabric stash, actually doing some craft/sewing work, applying for more different kinds of work, taking relief teaching work when I'm called on, dancing four-five times a week, D&D on Sundays, friends' birthdays and hen's nights and miscellaneous other parties, my days fill up very quickly. And that's before I spend an hour or two on tumblr and another hour or two on various other social media platforms and email and so on.
I'm thinking I really need to do something about my ADD. I really disliked the medications that I tried last time. They all made life so much easier in so many practical ways, but they all also completely killed my creativity and my ability to think quickly and connect ideas in new and exciting ways- plus with the last one I tried I constantly felt like I was a few seconds away from throwing up. I could function on a day-to-day basis so much more easily that I can't even put into words what a huge change it was, but I just didn't feel like myself. It's been a few years, and I have a new referral to a specialist, but I don't really want to go because it's time consuming and probably expensive to see him and also to buy new meds that I might not even take well to, so... But I really do need new coping mechanisms and better self-control, because my current methods of dealing with things are likely contributing to my random bouts of depression. Mostly I feel great, I get excited about all the things I can do, but I have difficulty focussing on just one thing and start a million projects. I happily bounce between them all for a time but I can't really keep up with all that's going on, and then I start to feel down about not achieving my goals. For the most part I shrug and keep going because I know that I am making progress on a bunch of things and that's enough to keep me feeling good about life, but then suddenly when I have days where I feel like shit there's all this stuff going on for me to feel guilty about. I need to work on this.
So, here's my one and only new goal: no more new goals until I finish off at least a few of the current ones! This means no fabric shopping, no researching how to make things, no pinterest, and no sketching designs for clothing or costumes. No sewing or crafting that I don't already have thoroughly planned and nothing that I need to buy any new materials for at all. I am going to find this frustrating and very difficult because there are so many things I want to do, but I am just going to have to find ways to be stricter with myself. Maybe it will even give me the motivation to finish some things off so that I can start new things when I'm done.
Do any of you have ADD? Do you prefer being on or off meds? I know so few adults who are willing to discuss it.
I'm finding it hard to keep on top of all my projects at the moment. Between cleaning my house (a massive undertaking as I have a bit of a hoarding issue and haven't really thoroughly cleaned since maybe two years ago), trying to sort out my craft and fabric stash, actually doing some craft/sewing work, applying for more different kinds of work, taking relief teaching work when I'm called on, dancing four-five times a week, D&D on Sundays, friends' birthdays and hen's nights and miscellaneous other parties, my days fill up very quickly. And that's before I spend an hour or two on tumblr and another hour or two on various other social media platforms and email and so on.
I'm thinking I really need to do something about my ADD. I really disliked the medications that I tried last time. They all made life so much easier in so many practical ways, but they all also completely killed my creativity and my ability to think quickly and connect ideas in new and exciting ways- plus with the last one I tried I constantly felt like I was a few seconds away from throwing up. I could function on a day-to-day basis so much more easily that I can't even put into words what a huge change it was, but I just didn't feel like myself. It's been a few years, and I have a new referral to a specialist, but I don't really want to go because it's time consuming and probably expensive to see him and also to buy new meds that I might not even take well to, so... But I really do need new coping mechanisms and better self-control, because my current methods of dealing with things are likely contributing to my random bouts of depression. Mostly I feel great, I get excited about all the things I can do, but I have difficulty focussing on just one thing and start a million projects. I happily bounce between them all for a time but I can't really keep up with all that's going on, and then I start to feel down about not achieving my goals. For the most part I shrug and keep going because I know that I am making progress on a bunch of things and that's enough to keep me feeling good about life, but then suddenly when I have days where I feel like shit there's all this stuff going on for me to feel guilty about. I need to work on this.
So, here's my one and only new goal: no more new goals until I finish off at least a few of the current ones! This means no fabric shopping, no researching how to make things, no pinterest, and no sketching designs for clothing or costumes. No sewing or crafting that I don't already have thoroughly planned and nothing that I need to buy any new materials for at all. I am going to find this frustrating and very difficult because there are so many things I want to do, but I am just going to have to find ways to be stricter with myself. Maybe it will even give me the motivation to finish some things off so that I can start new things when I'm done.
Do any of you have ADD? Do you prefer being on or off meds? I know so few adults who are willing to discuss it.