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The online chat tonight was lovely. Thank you to all of you. It was nice to talk to other people and feel like a human being again.
Although I can't help noticing that everyone in town seems rather young. I feel a bit like an older aunt, and I'm not that old myself. The truth is, I still feel rather as if I haven't found my niche here, as if I haven't yet made a life for myself. It isn't that I don't want to. Of course I do. But I have these overwhelming moments of feeling lost, and I don't...I don't know what to do when that happens. My birthday passed and I barely noticed.
I miss my husband. My son. I miss the me I was before any of that happened to me.
Although I can't help noticing that everyone in town seems rather young. I feel a bit like an older aunt, and I'm not that old myself. The truth is, I still feel rather as if I haven't found my niche here, as if I haven't yet made a life for myself. It isn't that I don't want to. Of course I do. But I have these overwhelming moments of feeling lost, and I don't...I don't know what to do when that happens. My birthday passed and I barely noticed.
I miss my husband. My son. I miss the me I was before any of that happened to me.