Fear and Self-loathing in Sacramento (God, I wish I were in Las Vegas)

[counteraxe]

Today I did somthing that I never do, I WENT TO A GYM. Well, don't clap yet, I went w/ my brother, his girlfriend, and his friend Zach to get dinner, then we droped some off to Zachs girlfriend who works at a gym. Long story short, I spent like an hour eating fastfood in some random gym for rich people... I hate myself. I always tell myself I will go to the gym, and I finally go, and stuff my face w/ a hart attack in a bun...
Anyway, today had some awsome weather. Though, I was not having good luck after school, it was nice to be able to have my misery in the sky also. Somthing about rain and clouds, just fits my personality. It was nice, but I got cold after awhile...

Feed up with all that esctacy
Need more sleep the coke or methanphedimines
Late nights with warm, warm wisky
I guess the good times, they were all just killing me.

I really should rape modest mouse..

Today has beed fitting, I guess.. I am not sure why, it just worked. The atmosphere matched my mood, which is always nice. I guess I should go read or some shit like that...

You said you loved me.
Then you turned your ugly head
You said you hated me
then you penetrated my deepest thoughts
Fuck you
But It was always I getting fucked.

JEN