FILLED: A guest amid ruinscounteragentOctober 11 2013, 02:27:04 UTC
Dean and Ezekiel walked the streets of Sam’s mind together. The city behind the broken wall had been leveled. Gutted husks of buildings stared with empty eyes, their windows shattered. All was silent. The cars-all ’67 Impalas-were wrecked, rusted corpses. Dean had to look away
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Re: FILLED: A guest amid ruinsash48October 11 2013, 04:05:53 UTC
Oh honey - I adore this landscape. What a fabulous idea that Dean's true age showed for what it was in this place. It's devastating that so much damage is there. The image of the library is heartbreaking. Worse, of course, that Sam finally asked Dean to stop - just when things could be fixed. Agh...I understood that right yeah? The demon child won. Sam's spoke and no doubt Dean will now have to listen.
This is exactly the reason why I think I'm going to love the season (though too early to tell I suppose), because the idea opens up such brilliant narrative opportunities. If not on the show, then definitely in fanfic. Thank you for this!! <333
Re: FILLED: A guest amid ruinscounteragentOctober 11 2013, 12:43:28 UTC
Yay! Glad you liked the imagery. I really wanted to get across a sense of damage without getting super medical about it.
I actually was trying to say that Sam wanted them to stop fixing him Ezekiel's way--that Ezekiel was perhaps repairing him in a way that Sam found repellent, but your reading is certainly a valid reaction to what I have here! And an interesting but even sadder direction.
Re: FILLED: A guest amid ruinsash48October 11 2013, 15:00:08 UTC
And an interesting but even sadder direction.
ha! that probably has a lot to do with my Sam head space at the moment (blame that vid. I've been working on it all day! - hoping you might be up for a rewatch?) I sunk into a very bleak interpretation of all things Sam...
And I loved the fic! Don't change it...(I'm all for expanding if you want to though...;D)
Re: FILLED: A guest amid ruinsscarletscarletOctober 11 2013, 09:49:08 UTC
awr, Sam, that's a sad self image. I'm left with the idea that Dean - and Ezekiel - wanted to fix Sam's mind to what he thought Sam should be, used to be, rather than letting him rebuild himself in his own way? A huge marble monolith might be impressive, but it's a little rigid, vs green growing supports n stuff that Sam was choosing to repair himself with, slowly...
Re: FILLED: A guest amid ruinscounteragentOctober 11 2013, 12:29:02 UTC
Yup, you got it! I realize reading the other comments that I wasn't clear enough, so it's nice that it came through for someone. :)
I actually was insinuating that Ezekiel was perhaps making the landscape cold and repellent like an angel's mind or something even more sinister. (He has a snake for a head after all.) But I was not clear enough about that.
Re: FILLED: A guest amid ruinsscarletscarletOctober 11 2013, 16:31:11 UTC
Ah, no, I actually got that impression too! The way li'l Sam thought about Ezekiel cleaning everything, while he was trying to grow stuff - it spoke to a kind of destructive sterility. When Sam, the actual owner of the consciousness (and one so vulnerable), was trying to encourage his organic growth, wrapping all the damage in a blanket of living things that'll hold it together and keep growing, and the alien presence was blasting it back into a cold, inorganic and unchanging rigidity, the latter is the one that feels wrong to me.
But then, I'm firmly in the camp of Ezekiel-is-sinister, so perhaps I'm already primed to eye him sideways :).
Re: FILLED: A guest amid ruinsash48October 12 2013, 09:38:33 UTC
Pigging-backing on these comments - but yes, now that my head space is less Ezekeil and Dean are there to do "good" I can see this. Also, and this is probably a bit weird, I was also not trusting that Sam knew what he was doing. Ack! I feel so disloyal to Sam. I gotta start trusting that he is actually capable of sorting himself out. ;)
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This is exactly the reason why I think I'm going to love the season (though too early to tell I suppose), because the idea opens up such brilliant narrative opportunities. If not on the show, then definitely in fanfic. Thank you for this!! <333
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I actually was trying to say that Sam wanted them to stop fixing him Ezekiel's way--that Ezekiel was perhaps repairing him in a way that Sam found repellent, but your reading is certainly a valid reaction to what I have here! And an interesting but even sadder direction.
Maybe I'll improve and expand this later... :)
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ha! that probably has a lot to do with my Sam head space at the moment (blame that vid. I've been working on it all day! - hoping you might be up for a rewatch?) I sunk into a very bleak interpretation of all things Sam...
And I loved the fic! Don't change it...(I'm all for expanding if you want to though...;D)
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I actually was insinuating that Ezekiel was perhaps making the landscape cold and repellent like an angel's mind or something even more sinister. (He has a snake for a head after all.) But I was not clear enough about that.
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But then, I'm firmly in the camp of Ezekiel-is-sinister, so perhaps I'm already primed to eye him sideways :).
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