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ive been looking at my entries recently and have decided that im pretty fucking retarded. im not going to apologize for myself since its my journal and my shit and the four people who read it that i know about can stop if they want to.
my counsellor says that i should write on here more often or in any kind of journal since bitching about shit is cathartic in a more "constructive manner" than beating the shit out of people. even though they fucking deserve it.
anyway, talking about shit. ive had this massive headache for the last three weeks that just wont go away even if i take tylenol and advil. apparently thats because its not a physical pain its something that my brain makes up because ive been restraining myself so hard because there are so many people out there that im just aching to beat the shit out of. it sounds fucked up to say that you just want to knock someone over and kick her and kick her until she stops screaming and to leave her there to think. i dont even want to fight her i just want to fucking hurt her. i just dont see why she has to come back into my life and bug me again after i worked so fucking hard to escape her. i practically left the fucking country.
i have this shitty new job that i love. i storm around a warehouse all day long throwing boxes of shit around. not fragile shit. it wont break. my boss says im the best new worker. i got a raise because im so fucking productive. probably because if i stopped id explode. i love throwing heavy shit around. especially after sitting around in a desk all day. i was fucking ecstatic when i got the job since it required a criminal record check and i have one. two provinces no less. but i dont steal shit and my interview went well so here i am. the pays great too.
its exam time so ive been studying a lot. i cant afford to get kicked out of school. my gpa last term was decent but im trying to do better this term. recently i havent gone out at all. i just go to class. go to work. throw heavy shit around and yell. come home and pass out. im happy.
i can write just so you know. i know how to capitalize and punctuate and shit. i think my decent spelling tells you that. i just dont like wasting my time on it when its not important. so stop bugging me about it.
thats all i have to say
my counsellor says that i should write on here more often or in any kind of journal since bitching about shit is cathartic in a more "constructive manner" than beating the shit out of people. even though they fucking deserve it.
anyway, talking about shit. ive had this massive headache for the last three weeks that just wont go away even if i take tylenol and advil. apparently thats because its not a physical pain its something that my brain makes up because ive been restraining myself so hard because there are so many people out there that im just aching to beat the shit out of. it sounds fucked up to say that you just want to knock someone over and kick her and kick her until she stops screaming and to leave her there to think. i dont even want to fight her i just want to fucking hurt her. i just dont see why she has to come back into my life and bug me again after i worked so fucking hard to escape her. i practically left the fucking country.
i have this shitty new job that i love. i storm around a warehouse all day long throwing boxes of shit around. not fragile shit. it wont break. my boss says im the best new worker. i got a raise because im so fucking productive. probably because if i stopped id explode. i love throwing heavy shit around. especially after sitting around in a desk all day. i was fucking ecstatic when i got the job since it required a criminal record check and i have one. two provinces no less. but i dont steal shit and my interview went well so here i am. the pays great too.
its exam time so ive been studying a lot. i cant afford to get kicked out of school. my gpa last term was decent but im trying to do better this term. recently i havent gone out at all. i just go to class. go to work. throw heavy shit around and yell. come home and pass out. im happy.
i can write just so you know. i know how to capitalize and punctuate and shit. i think my decent spelling tells you that. i just dont like wasting my time on it when its not important. so stop bugging me about it.
thats all i have to say